It's funny, I feel like I had been having all of these realizations and turn arounds with my playing, and suddenly, in the twinkling of an eye, I feel as though I know nothing and my motivation is killed.
Hmm... I just had a lesson a couple of days ago, and felt like that after the lesson. However, after more pondering, i started to realised it may have been one of the more important lessons -- for me to try to move to the next stage.
I've been learning a bach two part invention for two weeks now -- no. 15, and as of two days ago have gotten hardly anywhere. I've also been playing a chopin nocturn for ages and that seems to be meandering between completely inspiring to "it's a nocturn? I thought that you were playing guns and roses." depending on what seems like completely random factors, like which side of the bed I got up on, which way the wind is blowing, how may cows there are in london, etc... And it so happened that on that day, fate conspired to be unkind again, and the nocturn didn't come out quite right.
Anyway, the lesson consisted of some amount of playing the piano, but also a long chat.
Feeling slightly dejected, I went to sing in the evening. I was just sitting in with a new choir, and they hand lots of repetoir going already. A couple of bach, a motet and a cantata, some handel dixit dominus, brahms, conelius and the like.
I sort of didn't have very much time to think about notes and stuff and just start to sing what i saw on the page, getting my cue from the tenors around me when I was lost. Somehow things seemed easy. So it was a day fraught with musical contrats.
Thinking back on the discussions I had with my teacher, she said a number of things that really struck me.
The first is that when I learn i need to give meaning to the notes. I've learn't other 2 part inventions before. The last one was easier. I realised that when I start learning a piece, I usually do it passively. I repeat a set of notes or a phrase a number of times and after a while expect it to diffuse into my subconsions, so that when I play it each time it gets easier.
After thinking about it, I'm starting to wonder if that's a good way for me to learn. I think what my teacher was talking about is active learning. So, today I went i started learning the piece from scretch, this time trying to understand the patterns in the piece, and remembering how each of the patterns go, and what they do (major or minor, how it relates to the previous time the pattern occured etc.) Also I paid more attention to shapes of phrases and what each of the voices where trying to do, first taking each pharse hands separate and after that hands together.
Somehow this method clicked just after 1 hour. The two weeks prior to this were something of a waste of time. At the end of the hour I could play through 3/4s of the piece with a reasonable amout of expression. So I'm going to from now on, actively learn notes to all new pieces, by trying to figure out as I learn what the notes mean. I think it works better for me.
The second thing i learnt was with the chopin. I realised why I keep stumbling is that after working on the piece for so long, I was still worried about notes and details, more than i was worried about the music -- I kept thinking, how is the next note going to sound? Am I going hit the key in the right way?
So the think that I learnt is that at a certain stage of practice, one has to in a sense let go and allow the music to take over. So that what one is preoccupied with is the music and not individaul details in the piece. Perhaps, that's why I found it easy to sight sing choral repetoir in the evening -- believe me bach and brahm are not particularly easy to sing, let alone sight sing. I realised I was not really worried about each note, but trying to grab phrases and sounding consistent within each phrase.
So, that is a second of my goals -- after I taking care of details, such as touch and dynamics, to move as quickly as possible to a higher level of musical consiousness, where the thing that is important is mood and musicality, and to do this actively (conciously).
Hopefully this will speed up the learning process, and overall make a better musician out of me.
comments/suggestions are welcomed, if you haven't yet fallen asleep from reading my post.