i thought about this myself, at 44. i mean, what would i have to lose? then, i thought, no way am i calling myself an amateur after all this work (from age 8 to 44). you are 19! how much moreso. you could have a career (though it may not be international) easily. don't think less of yourself and pay $100. to have the title. the reward just isn't worth being called an excellent amateur the rest of your life. i'll be dead before i set foot in a hall that has a competition like that. it's like saying. do you want to be a loser and have it taped to your forehead. LOOSSER.