I am very angry today!!!!! No even more than angry but I don't know what word to use!!!!! But yesterday night I was even more angry!!!!!!!!!! I want to say some really bad things I mean I know people are horrible and mean and stupid and all that!!! Of course I know that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But............. right now I just really want all those stupid selfish horrible disgusting people to die in pain!!!!!!!!!!! Ok?? Yesterday when me and my mum went out with my dog... my dog stopped near a parked car and started looking and smelling something near the front wheel and I let her for a while but she just kept looking and smelling so me and my mum went to see why............ and you know why???' you know why?? the car was parked with the front wheel over a cat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so only the cat's paws and tail were sticking out of the wheel!!!!!!!!! I felt so sick when I saw that!!!!!!!!! What the ................................. I mean how the f.............. can you run over a cat in the parking lot?? not with the back wheels, with the front wheel??? not parking with the back of the car, but with the front of the car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the .......................... is wrong with people??? and then just going out of the car with the wheel over the poor cat and leaving it like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh and that parking lot is also a parking lot that's infront of a preschool!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope the person (oh no that's not even a person) who did that dies!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! as soon as possible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really wanted to destroy the car! but my mum wouldn't let me cause she was afraid someone would see and that then we would have to pay a lot of money (otherwise she would want to destroy the car too)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what a stupid f..... world........... you would get punished if you destroyed a stupid car but you don't get punished at all when you run over a cat and don't do anything and park on top of the cat like nothing happened!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! f... you people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know I know I'm gonna become that crazy person who hates people and yells bad things at people and only has animals for friends!!!!!!!!!!!! well the only thing I did to the car was lift up the windshield wipers and hit the car mirror (where the driver is) as much as I could with the flexi leash so it moved towards the window (but that's normal so I don't think I really did anything bad to it. I'm kinda hoping that at least that stupid white colour got at least a little damaged!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So now I don't know if I should call or write to the police or of I should find the car and do something else to it, or if I should write a note and say that the driver of the white car with licence plate LJ HM 274 is a murderer! and also to the owners of cats who live in the city where there are big roads and lots of cars and let their cats out by themselves they're stupid selfish people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Also I want to light a candle there near that parking lot where the poor cat died... I'm so sad and angry!!!!!!!!! with things like that I just lose all hope in the stupid human race!!!!!! I mean I know animals kill other animals too, but people are supposed to have the brain with wich they can help and do good but instead of that they only imagine how they're something great and better and special............ and then do much much worse things than any animal ever could!!!!!!!! I mean if you look at all the horrible things humans have done.... you can't even compare it to what the animals do even the scariest and most violent animals!!!!!!!!! And then these stupid people think they're gonna ascend into some higher dimension or something.......... OMG please don't they're just gonna ruin the whole universe or multiverse or whatever there is or is not!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause most people are just these stupid retarded cave people who accidentaly got this powerful machine called the brain which they have absolutely no idea how to use!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and it looks to me like they're gonna need another couple million of years to even start learning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! F...... losers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..............................................................................................................................................Ok................... I had to say all this................ I'm sorry. I know there are people who are good and nice and all that............. but just way too many people are.... what I said above!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Ok............ trying to let go of the anger and violent bad thoughts about other people!!!!!!!OK......................................RIP poor cat!!!!!!!!!! My angels will take care of you, you'll be ok now! lots of love and hugs!!!!!!!!!!!
*vomits in her mouth* I am so sorry...that is just pathetic, people are so full of hate and darkness, I am sorry you had to see that side of people. ((((((((((
I understand so well your anger and disgust with human race, and unendless pity for that poor cat...I' really really sorry Littletune!!!!!
I'm obsessed with Rachmaninoff's Third Piano concerto, I just can't get it out of my head! It is wonderful but I feel insane... I wonder if any other musicians feel this way sometimes... Natalya
So my parents finally decided to kill my dog on Monday.
The schools sound engineer was saying that I was OCD about mistakes. ...I tried to do everything flawless but I couldn't manage it. ...I'm gonna redo my 20th century and the Rachmaninoff at a recording studio because the left pedal was too squeaky and the mic's would pick it up.
I'm with the sound engineer.
But apparently I have to redo the whole thing because one of these schools want an audio AND video recording. We only did audio.
Aaah!! I'm finally making progress with my Satie, and then I'm going away from my piano for Christmas.. to top it all off, mother's all excited because it will be the first Christmas that we celebrate at their place with a whole bunch (thirteen) of our relatives (usually it's only us, me, mother, stepfather, and my brother); So I won't really be able to go recluse-mode and hide away from the merry loud folks, great. Just great.I know, I know, Christmas is supposed to be this great holiday, but I'm not a huge fan, frankly.
But I was also very worried (I still am a little), because my bird had another sneezing attack and blood coming out of his mouth and nose after a few days from when I was writing about it... so last Wednesday (exactly a week ago) we went to the vet and the vet said he probably had a bad lung infection (which is really bad, even for humans and even more for birds) so he gave him antibiotics which he gets once a day and he also has to have inhalation (i'm not sure if that's how you say it in english) twice a day... we heat up water and then put it close to his cage and cover him up so he breads hot wet air... and I'm there with him cause he shouldn't be left alone cause he could have trouble breathing... so I'm almost like in sauna twice a day, my mum says I'll have beautiful skin because of that but he seems to be getting better, but I don't want to say anything cause a lot of times when you get happy and you think it's getting better it gets worse again.... so I'm not saying anything but the first two days after we gave him antibiotics he had this sneezing attack, well probably it's more like caughing attack... and he was making these horrible sounds when he was breathing and now he doesn't have any problems, right after I put him back into his cage he starts singing and looks all happy he also had a few (smaller) attacks (with a little blood coming out of his mouth) almost every day late in the evening.... but not yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so............... I'm soooooooooooooooooooo hoping he's really getting better!!!!!!!!! but I won't say anything he needs to take antibiotics for 3 weeks, so for two more, and then we have to go to the vet again and he might even get another round of antibiotics if it wouldn't be completely ok yet.
Oh I feel so horrible and he was only 7 years old even though these cockatiels can live 15 to 20 years. I really never thought he would die so soon!!!! I never ever thought that!!! maybe that's why it's so horrible I don't know.............
Lethargic. I need a coffee injection.I've had that feeling littletune. That's why I double check now just to avoid that. Haha. When they're gone, they're gone. Or really, really good at holding their body stiff.
I feel horrible. I probably just failed my calc quiz because my calculator was set to radians instead of degrees. Too bad that I didn't have the common sense to realize that my answers were all weird for a reason.
Did you tell your teacher? Maybe he or she will understand.
Yes, I did, but only for the purpose of reassuring her that I do understand the material. I know she's a strict grader, so this grade will probably stand (yay, 35%). I sort of got the indirect message, "this is your lesson learned, now go ace this upcoming test and redeem yourself."
Rather warm. 44oC here at present, and the hottest part of the day looms.That's 111oF for you yanks.
copping what we had yesterday i see.
You people are real heroes to live under those conditions. How do you do it?
Well, it's -22C here now, so please send me a little of your heat...
I have my first audition at U of I tomorrow. I hope I get in.
Knock 'em dead, mate.
Done. Hope it all arrived safely.
Charm them with your playing and your wooden thing!
"Thing"?! That "thing" you're talking about is a freaking wooden bowtie!!! Get it right!!!
... That "thing" ... is a ... wooden bowtie! ...