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Offline chopin2015

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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1000 on: October 21, 2012, 02:05:21 AM
I am  very angry today!!!!! No even more than angry but I don't know what word to use!!!!!  >:(  >:(  >:( But yesterday night I was even more angry!!!!!!!!!! I want to say some really bad things  :-X  :-X I mean I know people are horrible and mean and stupid and all that!!! Of course I know that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But............. right now I just really want all those stupid selfish horrible disgusting people to die in pain!!!!!!!!!!! Ok??????????? Yesterday when me and my mum went out with my dog... my dog stopped near a parked car and started looking and smelling something near the front wheel and I let her for a while but she just kept looking and smelling so me and my mum went to see why............ and you know why??????????????????'  :-X you know why??????????????  the car was parked with the front wheel over a cat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:(  >:(  >:(  >:(  >:( so only the cat's paws and tail were sticking out of the wheel!!!!!!!!!  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'( I felt so sick when I saw that!!!!!!!!! What the ................................. ????????????????????????????????? I mean how the f.............. can you run over a cat in the parking lot??????????????????????? not with the back wheels, with the front wheel??????????????? not parking with the back of the car, but with the front of the car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the .......................... is wrong with people??? and then just going out of the car with the wheel over the poor cat and leaving it  like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh and that parking lot is also a parking lot that's infront of a preschool!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope the person  (oh no that's not even a person) who did that dies!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! as soon as possible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really wanted to destroy the car! but my mum wouldn't let me cause she was afraid someone would see and that then we would have to pay a lot of money (otherwise she would want to destroy the car too)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what a stupid f..... world........... you would get punished if you destroyed a stupid car but you don't get punished at all when you run over a cat and don't do anything and park on top of the cat like nothing happened!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! f... you people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know I know I'm gonna become that crazy person who hates people and yells bad things at people and only has animals for friends!!!!!!!!!!!! well the only thing I did to the car was lift up the windshield wipers and hit the car mirror (where the driver is) as much as I could with the flexi leash so it moved towards the window (but that's normal so I don't think I really did anything bad to it. I'm kinda hoping that at least that stupid white colour got at least a little damaged!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  >:(  >:(  >:(  >:(  >:(  >:(  >:(  >:(  >:(  >:(  >:(  >:(
So now I don't know if I should call or write to the police or of I should find the car and do something else to it, or if I should write a note and say that the driver of the white car with licence plate LJ HM 274 is a murderer! and also to the owners of cats who live in the city where there are big roads and lots of cars and let their cats out by themselves they're stupid selfish people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  >:(  >:(  >:( Also I want to light a candle there near that parking lot where the poor cat died...  :'(  :'(  :'(
I'm so sad and angry!!!!!!!!! with things like that I just lose all hope in the stupid human race!!!!!! I mean I know animals kill other animals too, but people are supposed to have the brain with wich they can help and do good but instead of that they only imagine how they're something great and better  and special............ and then do much much worse things than any animal ever could!!!!!!!! I mean if you look at all the horrible things humans have done.... you can't even compare it to what the animals do even the scariest and most violent animals!!!!!!!!!  And then these stupid people think they're gonna ascend into some higher dimension or something..........  ::) OMG please don't they're just gonna ruin the whole universe or multiverse or whatever there is or is not!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause most people are just these stupid retarded cave people who accidentaly got this powerful machine called the brain which they have absolutely no idea how to use!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and it looks to me like they're gonna need another couple million of years to even start learning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! F...... losers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Ok................... I had to say all this................ I'm sorry. I know there are people who are good and nice and all that............. but just way too many people are.... what I said above!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok............ trying to let go of the anger and violent bad thoughts about other people!!!!!!!
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RIP poor cat!!!!!!!!!!  :(  :'( My angels will take care of you, you'll be ok now! lots of love and hugs!!!!!!!!!!!

*vomits in her mouth* I am so sorry...that is just pathetic, people are so full of hate and darkness, I am sorry you had to see that side of people. :(((((((((((
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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1001 on: October 21, 2012, 05:35:40 AM
I understand so well your anger and disgust with human race, and unendless pity for that poor cat...I' really really sorry Littletune!!!!! :( :( :( :(

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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1002 on: October 30, 2012, 08:33:35 PM
*vomits in her mouth* I am so sorry...that is just pathetic, people are so full of hate and darkness, I am sorry you had to see that side of people. :(((((((((((

I understand so well your anger and disgust with human race, and unendless pity for that poor cat...I' really really sorry Littletune!!!!! :( :( :( :(

Thank you! I'm glad there are people who feel the same as I do about animals. I will light a candle for the poor cat!!

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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1003 on: November 21, 2012, 04:34:53 AM
I think I've been having, no, I know I've been having, deep withdrawals from not playing the Appassionata anymore.  Schumann ABEGG, too.  It's as if I haven't hardly even known who I am without those everyday.  I've needed a break for various reasons, but I think I really deeply miss them ... it's been months since I've even thought seriously about playing them even just for fun.
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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1004 on: November 21, 2012, 08:35:37 PM
I'm obsessed with Rachmaninoff's Third Piano concerto, I just can't get it out of my head! It is wonderful but I feel insane... I wonder if any other musicians feel this way sometimes...   ???

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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1005 on: November 22, 2012, 03:35:41 AM
I'm obsessed with Rachmaninoff's Third Piano concerto, I just can't get it out of my head! It is wonderful but I feel insane... I wonder if any other musicians feel this way sometimes...   ???

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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1006 on: November 22, 2012, 03:41:23 AM
So my parents finally decided to kill my dog on Monday.

And today I had to record my college auditions.  I think they went pretty well.  We used some 2,000 dollar mic's, and we stayed there for five hours.  The schools sound engineer was saying that I was OCD about mistakes. 

I tried to do everything flawless but I couldn't manage it.  I'm gonna redo my 20th century and the Rachmaninoff at a recording studio because the left pedal was too squeaky and the mic's would pick it up.
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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1007 on: November 22, 2012, 03:44:50 AM
So my parents finally decided to kill my dog on Monday.

Sorry to hear it.


The schools sound engineer was saying that I was OCD about mistakes. 

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I tried to do everything flawless but I couldn't manage it. 

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I'm gonna redo my 20th century and the Rachmaninoff at a recording studio because the left pedal was too squeaky and the mic's would pick it up.

I'm with the sound engineer.  :P
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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1008 on: November 22, 2012, 03:48:12 AM



I'm with the sound engineer.  :P


Well I did it without the left pedal, so he said he thinks that I don't have to redo it.  But apparently I have to redo the whole thing because one of these schools want an audio AND video recording.  We only did audio.
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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1009 on: November 22, 2012, 03:56:33 AM
But apparently I have to redo the whole thing because one of these schools want an audio AND video recording.  We only did audio.


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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1010 on: December 11, 2012, 05:51:48 AM
Well, I *think* I'm doing pretty well!  In the last week I've committed myself to what has seemed like a very major life-decision, wrote two fairly thoughtful papers, made a new type of resume, compiled a repertoire list, completed 11 applications for the classes I'm offering in the Winter/Spring at the School, taught, practiced, video recorded my students and compiled a necessary video, I've completely rethought the last 10 years of my teaching and my entire teaching approach :P, rethought my whole life and turned into a new person  :P, ordered both official and unofficial transcripts, started a new business with my husband, and last but not least, yesterday *drum roll* I had my debut of a public/formal setting where I both sang and accompanied myself on the piano, as well as playing the rest of the church service (all of the music organized by me).  To top it all off, I've made more meals and done more cleaning, too!  I'm kind of tired but it feels pretty great ... so, I guess the fact that it feels pretty good must mean I'm doing well  ;D
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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1011 on: December 15, 2012, 02:44:28 PM
I'm sick. I have an upset stomach and a horrid headache. I don't know what illness this is, but it seems to be quite common here at this time of year. So I haven't been able to do anything for the past several days. I hope it gets better soon. I have been drinking tea to relieve my headache, but it makes me feel more sick to my stomach. And not eating/drinking makes me even more tired.

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Reply #1012 on: December 15, 2012, 09:37:16 PM
Wow m1469 you did  A LOT of things!!! well I hope you didn't turn into a completely different person cause you were really cool as a preson you were before! :)

Well I am tired from the last two weeks (or the last few weeks, I don't even know exactly)... we were renovating our apartment and then on tuesday they came to change our windows and it was supposed to be done in 5 or 6 hours but then all sorts of things went wrong and so those people were in our apartment for the whole two days!! And the first day all the windows were open (and the balcony) for a really long time and outside it was freezing!!! so the whole apartment got really cold and the floor was like ice cold and we didn't eat almost anything and we couldn't do anything.... really fun.... not!!! I mean we were changing our windows when it was the coldest... now it got wormer again, but we had to change the windows really quickly because we were already late cause the inspector said we needed to change them before the end of November and probably our dear downstairs neighbour complained that we still haven't because my parents got a letter from the inspector asking if we had changed the windows already.  ::) I mean it's not like we can do it ourselves, we needed to wait for the windows to be made and for the people who know how to change windows to come and change them!!  ::)
And then the next day after those two difficult days, the neighbour who lives on the bottom floor put into our mail box some parts of the things that i guess fell onto his garden when they were taking our old windows out! i mean it's not like we knew! it's not like we were doing that! it's not like we could have done anything about it!  ::)

Then the next thing was that our pets were worrying us, because my cat was throwing up almost every day for a while and then in the end it looked like she threw up some blood!!! then when my cat stopped throwing up my dog threw up twice all the food she had just eaten, and the worst one was my bird - the cockatiel - who was having sneezing attacks that lasted for a really long time and then blood was coming out of his nose and mouth!!!!  :o really horrible... and he wasn't feeling all that great for a few days, but then after that he became even more happy then before!  :) I hope he doesn't get any more of those sneezing attacks!!

One more thing was that I felt really horrible cause I think I accidentally killed a little bug, like a really tiny beatle  :(  :( the ones that go into your food too, so my mum doesn't like them all that much, I mean I don't like them in my food either but I felt soooo horrible... I mean I saw it on the top of the turtle aquarium and I was thinking should I move it away or something and then I thought maybe I better leave it there cause it's such a tiny bug that I felt I could hurt it if i tried to move it... and then I was giving food to my turtles and I was giving them some fruit and vegetables but it wasn't that much and they ate it right away so I thought maybe I should also give them a little bit of their turtle food (and usually when I give them fruit and vegetables I don't give them their food but exactly that day I decided to cause there wasn't much of the fresh food) and of course while I was doing all that I completely forgot about the little bug and I pushed the thing that covers the opening for food back and gave them some food and then when I put it back I saw something that looked like bird food and then I remembered, and I'm not completely sure if it was really that little bug or not because it didn't look anything like it.... but if it was it was completely squashed  :'(  :'( I felt soooooooooo horrible!!!! And then a few days later when I got a little over that poor bug- the second day of changing our windows when they were done, there was a fly... it was flying all over the apartment but especially in my room and I thought well now we can't put it out cause it's freezing so we have to wait a few days till it gets a little warmer, and I was worried about it cause my cat was trying to catch it and cause I was thinking what if it falls into the aquarium (cause that happened a lot in summer) and then I am in my room and i hear the fly flying around and then all of a sudden it flys into the light that is on my aquarium (it doesn't have a normal light bulb but it has like a long tube, i think fluorescent) and then when it flew in it started buzzing really loudly so I knew something was wrong  :( so I tried to lift the covering but it was really difficult which is weird because usually the covering is falling off all the time and when I finally opened it the fly was on the stupid flourescent light bulb and then it fell off and it was dead  :'(  :'(  and some sticky brown yellow thing was comming out of it's head (or somewhere around that)... it was really horrible!!!!!!!! maybe people think I'm so stupid and weird to get so upset about bugs but it's just horrible to me it was really traumatic :( and then I was thinking I should have lifted that cover sooner or what if I injured it with the cover cause I was so awkward with it...   :(  :'(

And then there was Christmas recital yesterday! I think there was some kind of a virus there that makes you forget your piece! because almost everyone got confused in the middle of their piece and didn't know how to continue!!! It was especially bad for one girl who only played about 3 bars of her piece and then didn't know how to continue... she started from the beginning about 4 or 5 times and always stopped in the same place after just a few bars then she sat for a while and stared at the keys and then she got up and went off. Well I completely forgot one bar in the middle of the first movement of Sonatina and i could see in my head how the same thing will happen to me and i won't know how to continue at all! And I tried a few times to find the right keys, which was stupid cause if I didn't do that most people wouldn't notice I left one bar out, but I got really confused, but then I continued and I didn't forget or make mistakes anymore. So yes... but I didn't like the way my parents acted after the recital! I mean I know they're tired from last weeks so they're a little in a bad mood, specially my dad, I mean I am tired too, but when I get tired and I'm in a bad mood I cry or yell a little or even throw something  :P and then soon I'm ok again, but my parents pretend like everything is cool and then they're a little bit in a bad mood for a lot longer... cause when I'm in a bad mood I'm in a really bad mood but just for a little while, but they're just a little bit in a bad mood for a really long time!  ::) so my dad didn't say anything at all!!! when we were driving home it was like we were going from a funeral not from a Christmas recital!!!!  ::) and the first thing my mum said was: Oh you messed up a little!  ::) I mean really! I messed up in the middle of the first movement! the beginning and the end of the first movement were ok and the whole second movement was ok, and the first thing she says is: oh you messed up a little!  ::) but well I know she didn't mean anything bad and she gave me a cute little cactus and a beautiful little angel!  :)  8)

So yes and then the translating thing yesterday and now I'm ready to start enjoying Christmas holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  :P  :)  8)

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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1013 on: December 19, 2012, 12:39:20 AM
Aaah!! I'm finally making progress with my Satie, and then I'm going away from my piano for Christmas.. to top it all off, mother's all excited because it will be the first Christmas that we celebrate at their place with a whole bunch (thirteen) of our relatives (usually it's only us, me, mother, stepfather, and my brother); So I won't really be able to go recluse-mode and hide away from the merry loud folks, great. Just great.

I know, I know, Christmas is supposed to be this great holiday, but I'm not a huge fan, frankly.
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Re: How are you doing right now ?
Reply #1014 on: December 19, 2012, 04:37:46 PM
Aaah!! I'm finally making progress with my Satie, and then I'm going away from my piano for Christmas.. to top it all off, mother's all excited because it will be the first Christmas that we celebrate at their place with a whole bunch (thirteen) of our relatives (usually it's only us, me, mother, stepfather, and my brother); So I won't really be able to go recluse-mode and hide away from the merry loud folks, great. Just great.

I know, I know, Christmas is supposed to be this great holiday, but I'm not a huge fan, frankly.

Buck up and put on your party face! It won't hurt you. Besides it's good practice for later. And turn off the electronics. The last thing the world needs is another recluse who can't/won't/isn't able to get along with other people.
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Reply #1015 on: December 26, 2012, 10:12:26 PM
Well holidays are cool!!  8)  8)  8) instead of a white Christmas we had a warm Christmas... it got really unusually warm here!!!
But I was also very worried (I still am a little), because my bird had another sneezing attack and blood coming out of his mouth and nose after a few days from when I was writing about it... so last Wednesday (exactly a week ago) we went to the vet and the vet said he probably had a bad lung infection (which is really bad, even for humans and even more for birds) so he gave him antibiotics which he gets once a day and he also has to have inhalation (i'm not sure if that's how you say it in english) twice a day... we heat up water and then put it close to his cage and cover him up so he breads hot wet air... and I'm there with him cause he shouldn't be left alone cause he could have trouble breathing... so I'm almost like in sauna twice a day, my mum says I'll have beautiful skin because of that  :P but he seems to be getting better, but I don't want to say anything cause a lot of times when you get happy and you think it's getting better it gets worse again.... so I'm not saying anything  :-X but the first two days after we gave him antibiotics he had this sneezing attack, well probably it's more like caughing attack... and he was making these horrible sounds when he was breathing and now he doesn't have any problems, right after I put him back into his cage he starts singing and looks all happy :) he also had a few (smaller) attacks (with a little blood coming out of his mouth) almost every day late in the evening.... but not yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so............... I'm soooooooooooooooooooo hoping he's really getting better!!!!!!!!! but I won't say anything  :-X he needs to take antibiotics for 3 weeks, so for two more, and then we have to go to the vet again and he might even get another round of antibiotics if it wouldn't be completely ok yet.

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Reply #1016 on: December 27, 2012, 12:29:12 AM
Birds are really difficult to keep or treat. Some friends are looking for temporary lodging for their African Grey. We've had extensive experience with one and said no. It's too fragile.

Good luck and best wishes for your bird.
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Reply #1017 on: December 27, 2012, 12:30:55 AM
Stupid cold won't go away. I am pretty sure I overdosed on cold medication but nothing seems to be working. But it's not so bad, my head hurts and my throat is full of phlegm, but besides that I'm mostly okay.

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Reply #1018 on: December 27, 2012, 05:22:08 AM

But I was also very worried (I still am a little), because my bird had another sneezing attack and blood coming out of his mouth and nose after a few days from when I was writing about it... so last Wednesday (exactly a week ago) we went to the vet and the vet said he probably had a bad lung infection (which is really bad, even for humans and even more for birds) so he gave him antibiotics which he gets once a day and he also has to have inhalation (i'm not sure if that's how you say it in english) twice a day... we heat up water and then put it close to his cage and cover him up so he breads hot wet air... and I'm there with him cause he shouldn't be left alone cause he could have trouble breathing... so I'm almost like in sauna twice a day, my mum says I'll have beautiful skin because of that  :P but he seems to be getting better, but I don't want to say anything cause a lot of times when you get happy and you think it's getting better it gets worse again.... so I'm not saying anything  :-X but the first two days after we gave him antibiotics he had this sneezing attack, well probably it's more like caughing attack... and he was making these horrible sounds when he was breathing and now he doesn't have any problems, right after I put him back into his cage he starts singing and looks all happy :) he also had a few (smaller) attacks (with a little blood coming out of his mouth) almost every day late in the evening.... but not yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so............... I'm soooooooooooooooooooo hoping he's really getting better!!!!!!!!! but I won't say anything  :-X he needs to take antibiotics for 3 weeks, so for two more, and then we have to go to the vet again and he might even get another round of antibiotics if it wouldn't be completely ok yet.

Sounds very promising...just make sure you'll give him the whole course of antibiotics and do the follow up with the vet even if he seems ok. He might get some stomach problems because of the anitibiotics, but it should pass.

It's really stressing when animals are sick, it's always so hard to tell how serious it is :(

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Reply #1019 on: December 29, 2012, 03:40:38 PM
Thank you Oxy and thank you Outin for caring about my bird... yes I thought he was going to be ok too I was so sure... but he died  :'(  :'( he died so quickly... later that evening when I wrote about it... 5 minutes to midnight... he was sitting on the thing with food and I heard something and I got this horrible feeling and I looked and he stll looked normal so I thought Oh I'm just nervous and imagining things and then I heard it again really soon after that and I looked and I knew it was bad, he couldn't stand on his feet his head was going forward and it was like he had some kind of a seizure then I took him out of his cage and my mum called the vet, the vet said we can bring him there and he would give him oxygen... but I kinda knew he wouldn't live that long... and almost right away when my mum hung up and I gave her my poor bird so she would hold him while I would get dressed he died, he closed his eyes (or half closed) and died, he looked like an angel sleeping.  :'(  :'(  :'( I'm really sad, and that's normal that i'm sad but the bad thing is I feel like there's no hope, like I lost all my hope.  :( because when my dog died I was really really sad I was crying all the time but when I woke up the next day I had this weird feeling of hope and like a new life was beginning. But now somehow I can't get that feeling of hope. I don't know why, maybe it's because I was sure he would get better and I had so much hope cause it was looking so well and I really wasn't expecting him to die and then he died and it's like all my hope died too... I don't know.  :-\ but it's difficult! Well the vet said that he was afraid that it wasn't just an infection, because if it was an infection it wouldn't be just blood coming out of his mouth and nose but also mucus and pus, but it was just blood, so he was afraid it might be cancer but he couldn't do anything about that so he gave him antibiotics if it was an infection, and he said that maybe there was some infection beside the cancer and that's why the antibiotics seem to help at first, but he said he probably had a growth and it opened up and he bled internally...  :(  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'(  :'( Oh I feel so horrible and he was only 7 years old even though these  cockatiels can live 15 to 20 years. I really never thought he would die so soon!!!! I never ever thought that!!! maybe that's why it's so horrible I don't know.............
I don't even know how I'll play for the competition... I always imagined when I played the Tchaikovsky Sweet dreams wishing and hoping for something and now I feel like I don't have any hope....... but I will try it ... for my bird!

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Reply #1020 on: December 29, 2012, 03:51:38 PM
Oh I feel so horrible and he was only 7 years old even though these  cockatiels can live 15 to 20 years. I really never thought he would die so soon!!!! I never ever thought that!!! maybe that's why it's so horrible I don't know.............


I am so sorry  :(
Just remember you did your best for him. Birds and reptiles really are fragile that way, when they get sick there's not so much even a vet can do. It was his time  :(

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Reply #1021 on: December 29, 2012, 04:15:22 PM
Thank you Outin!! Yes I've heard that when birds get really sick like get bad colds or infections and especially cancer there's really not much hope, but I just thought he would be ok cause he looked so well and was getting better and everything...
Now I'm also worried for my other little bird, she's a budgie and she is already about 12 to 13 years old! we got her cause some stupid woman wanted to kill her cause she didn't want to have her anymore, and that was 10 years ago!!! and the vet said she was about 2 to 3 years old then! And I have been worrying about her for like two years already even though she looks great, but just because of her age... and all that time I was worrying about her but I never worried about my cockatiel cause he was still young...
But now I'm like worrying about every little thing so yesterday we went to the vet with my budgie just so he would look at her to make sure she's ok. He couldn't even believe she was that old already and he said she looked well he just gave her some vitamines cause she's changing her feathers. But she's acting a little weird since my other bird died... she wants to go into his cage all the time and she stands and looks at his cage and gets kinda angry (at least that's what it sounds like), and yesterday when I opened his cage for the first time, when she saw it was opened she got so happy and she made a sound and it almost sounded like she said his name. And besides that she is trying now to go near the big bird that we rescued which is a crow and he can't fly but his head is like the size of my little budgie or bigger, but she is flying around him all the time when they're out of the cages and when he was in his cage she just flew on his cage and we're worried about that...
Well... maybe my angel bird will help us get a new friend for my budgie, like my dog helped us get the dog we have now!

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Reply #1022 on: December 29, 2012, 04:41:51 PM
A lot of birds like to "pair up." We don't know much about it but they like to be around each other, even for just a fly-by.

Everybody was concerned about how an African Grey would adapt to a bird hotel while it's owner went on a trip. When we went to check on it, there it was talking to the other birds. It had bad moods at home but at the hotel it appeared very happy.

Maybe you need another bird to "pair-up" with the one you lost?
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Reply #1023 on: December 29, 2012, 08:18:19 PM
I'm uber lazy today.
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Reply #1024 on: December 30, 2012, 08:47:23 PM
Thanks Oxy! Yes we are now trying to find the right bird to be a friend to my budgie.

Tonight I had a panic attack about my bird, I just started thinking Oh what if he wasn't really completely dead and he wakes up in a box that's wraped in a plastic bag and he won't be able to breath... it was such a horrible feeling it was really horrible!  :(

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Reply #1025 on: December 30, 2012, 11:12:16 PM
Lethargic.  I need a coffee injection.


I've had that feeling littletune.  That's why I double check now just to avoid that.  Haha.  When they're gone, they're gone. Or really, really good at holding their body stiff.
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Reply #1026 on: December 31, 2012, 12:31:46 AM
I am freaking pumped!!!!!!!!!

I just had my best game of infinity slayer on Halo 4 EVER!!!. I freaking put the team on my freaking back!!!

I went freaking 46-6 AND got freaking 37 kill streak!!! INCONCIEVABLE!!!  Let's go!!!!!!  My team absolutely sucked, everyone's kill death ratio on my team went negative but I went +40 so I ended up going positive for the team average!!!  So I died six times in the beginning of the game but then all of the sudden I freaking went to town!!!  I don't know what freaking happened to me!!!

And the other team felt SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SALTY!!!. They all got freaking annihilated by one person!!!  Well not annihilated.  We actually almost lost because my team sucked.  But still...

AND I WAS PLAYING SPLIT SCREEN!!!


After that I decided to send personal messages to everyone involved in the game telling them how much they SUCKED!!!.  Well three other people were in the same room as me so I was freaking screaming at them.
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Reply #1027 on: January 06, 2013, 03:59:49 PM
Lethargic.  I need a coffee injection.


I've had that feeling littletune.  That's why I double check now just to avoid that.  Haha.  When they're gone, they're gone. Or really, really good at holding their body stiff.

dude, try coffee turkish style. AAAHHHMAAAAZING zing zing zing
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Reply #1028 on: January 10, 2013, 11:04:11 PM
I feel horrible. I probably just failed my calc quiz because my calculator was set to radians instead of degrees. Too bad that I didn't have the common sense to realize that my answers were all weird for a reason.

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Reply #1029 on: January 13, 2013, 06:57:32 AM
I feel horrible. I probably just failed my calc quiz because my calculator was set to radians instead of degrees. Too bad that I didn't have the common sense to realize that my answers were all weird for a reason.

Did you tell your teacher? Maybe he or she will understand.
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Reply #1030 on: January 14, 2013, 10:46:22 PM
Did you tell your teacher? Maybe he or she will understand.


Yes, I did, but only for the purpose of reassuring her that I do understand the material. I know she's a strict grader, so this grade will probably stand (yay, 35%). I sort of got the indirect message, "this is your lesson learned, now go ace this upcoming test and redeem yourself."

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Reply #1031 on: January 14, 2013, 11:51:23 PM
I'm doing freaking kickass right now!!!

I found 15 dollars on the ground!!!
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Reply #1032 on: January 15, 2013, 11:36:07 AM
Yes, I did, but only for the purpose of reassuring her that I do understand the material. I know she's a strict grader, so this grade will probably stand (yay, 35%). I sort of got the indirect message, "this is your lesson learned, now go ace this upcoming test and redeem yourself."

Ouch. You take things a lot better than I do...good for you! You can do it!
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Reply #1033 on: January 18, 2013, 12:56:15 AM
Rather warm. 44oC here at present, and the hottest part of the day looms.

That's 111oF for you yanks.
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Reply #1034 on: January 18, 2013, 12:59:15 AM
Rather warm. 44oC here at present, and the hottest part of the day looms.

That's 111oF for you yanks.
copping what we had yesterday i see.

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Reply #1035 on: January 18, 2013, 01:12:33 AM
copping what we had yesterday i see.

I hope not. Melbourne was 10 degrees cooler at this time yesterday and just kept getting warmer til about 7pm.  If it does that here, I'm toast. Literally.
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Reply #1036 on: January 18, 2013, 03:41:52 AM
You people are real heroes to live under those conditions. How do you do it?
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Reply #1037 on: January 18, 2013, 05:40:47 AM
You people are real heroes to live under those conditions. How do you do it?

The alternative is considered bad form.
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Reply #1038 on: January 18, 2013, 09:14:21 PM
Well, it's -22C here now, so please send me a little of your heat...

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Reply #1039 on: January 19, 2013, 12:35:03 AM
Well, it's -22C here now, so please send me a little of your heat...

Done. Hope it all arrived safely.
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Reply #1040 on: January 19, 2013, 01:14:38 AM
Rather warm. 44oC here at present, and the hottest part of the day looms.

That's 111oF for you yanks.

It's never too cold to skate, but it can be too hott to skate.
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Reply #1041 on: January 19, 2013, 01:15:14 AM
I have my first audition at U of I tomorrow.  I hope I get in.
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Reply #1042 on: January 19, 2013, 01:40:34 AM
I have my first audition at U of I tomorrow.  I hope I get in.

Knock 'em dead, mate.
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Reply #1043 on: January 19, 2013, 01:59:29 AM
I practiced a little today, about 2 hours. I had to run to town and get a sustain pedal for the keyboard and then ate and sat on couch the rest of the day. I am taking the rest of the day off, but I needed it to figure out how I can improve next time I practice! So I am doing ok. Im not depressed and my hands do not hurt! :)
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Reply #1044 on: January 19, 2013, 02:02:05 AM
Live large, die large.  Leave a giant coffin.

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Reply #1045 on: January 19, 2013, 03:16:09 AM
Done. Hope it all arrived safely.

Not yet, but it's probably just stuck at the customs...

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Reply #1046 on: January 19, 2013, 03:18:00 AM
I have my first audition at U of I tomorrow.  I hope I get in.

Good luck! Charm them with your playing and your wooden thing!

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Reply #1047 on: January 19, 2013, 03:22:54 AM
Charm them with your playing and your wooden thing!

"Thing"?! 

That "thing" you're talking about is a freaking wooden bowtie!!!  Get it right!!! >:(

If I do get in, it's probably because they thought the bow tie was cool and they wanted to ask me where I got it...
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Reply #1048 on: January 19, 2013, 03:35:23 AM
"Thing"?! 

That "thing" you're talking about is a freaking wooden bowtie!!!  Get it right!!! >:(


Sorry, I didn't even know what a bowtie was, so I am just learning  :-[

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Reply #1049 on: January 19, 2013, 08:17:52 AM
... That "thing" ... is a ... wooden bowtie! ...
Wooden bowtie? Has a picture been posted of it? In that case, I would love to see it!
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