hmmm ... thank you for your posts, Ted and Wolfi. I have this big idea brewing right now that I am not sure I can communicate, but I have to try ... hee hee.
There is a lot to all of this, I mean, what I am trying to say comes from years of observation of other individuals in various settings, but I want to try to condense my thoughts to the "results" of those observations, rather than getting caught up in specific points within them.
It seems to me that most people who become a kind of bitter in their life
are so because they feel that somehow they are missing something in their lives that they are actually entitled to. Whether it be opportunities at various points or perhaps the right kind of recognition for what they are currently doing. There are many details involved in that of course, but perhaps it's those overriding characteristics of a path that make a person become angry or empty regarding their life's occupation (and, I mean 'occupation' in various ways).
I think that ultimately, people are seeking some kind of seemingly elusive fulfillment that somehow appears to exist in various places, but once the individual arrives there, they discover it's not actually there, or they feel they never arrive there and are therefore robbed of that fulfillment.
Is there truly any kind of direct path to that kind of fulfillment ? Even if a person outwardly reaches what seem to be the upper echelons of success in terms of art or anything that we percieve as humans, or if their life's path went exactly the way that perhaps others may sometimes envy, have they somehow had an easier personal path in discovering a sense of deep fulfillment in life ?
If, for example, I had been some kind of recognized child prodigy when I were growing up, and had studied at the best schools with the best teachers throughout my life, and that led to a revered career that at this point in my life were already well underway, would I have asked any fewer questions on this forum or to myself ? Would I have more answers in terms of my purpose and a sense of fulfillment about living ? To me, that is what matters more than anything ; who I am each morning, each moment, each day. What kind of quality my individuality is, in the deepest parts of my soul (AND whether or not I can even
feel my soul !!).
Part of me feels a little leery of what seem to be dinstinguished careers actually, because I don't want to forget who I am within all of that. But, I realize that I can't assume either way, and that an individual has to keep following some crazy path that is revealed just little by little perhaps, day by day, moment by moment. hee hee ... I guess I have been thinking a bit

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Right now, this moment, I think my path is revealing to me steps back to the piano to play some wonderful music

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