You never did want to talk about Cassidy's Ten Monophonic Miniatures? Or are we just too inferior and stupid, and you use Cassidy to flaunt that?
Nobody here is talking about the piece any more. You made a post that was about the ideology of the piece, and then switched half-way through to being about me again. If you want to talk about me, then let's not blame it on me. Do you literally need me to copy/paste all the comments that are transpiring in this thread for you as evidence, are you actually unaware of the fact that you and others are concentrating on me instead of the music, or are you just trying to make a point? Frankly, whether or not your "point" means anything to anyone does not concern me, because it obviously doesn't mean anything to me, which I would hope would be your "point" in the first place. If it's exhibition, I suggest you start thinking about your
own actions as well as mine. If you want to discuss the piece of music, make a comment about it. Not a comment about me, or what you think I am, or things I've said, or things you've interpreted about me from some online interaction.
To the contrary, I said you are not a sociopath, but I'm sorry if your think your misguided philosophy works. Society will chew you up and spit you out.
You said I am not a sociopath "because I want to kill everyone" and "because I don't even remember my own actions". Again, is this exhibition rhetoric, or do you honestly believe yourself? If you think
anyone who
vaguely speaks English and doesn't have Autism is going to interpret that comment as sincere, you need to evaluate your use of the language. Social Darwinism is a philosophy invented by someone far smarter than me or you; take it up with them. I also severely doubt you understand what it is.
Why do you assume I was offended? As if I don't know some of the obvious flaws of my playing? I held the recording back for nearly 3 years! I just had no idea what you were communicating, so I think you're confused about what is and what is not constructive.
You are not understanding that comment. It directly proceeded the remark about the execution of what I labeled as "vitriol". It has nothing to do with your playing or your offense.
Sorry to be so ignorant, but it's easy to be confused when I must look up terms in an urban dictionary. "Patience young padowan" does not strike me as constructive criticism, but that's probably my fault, because how could you have known my ignorance to this vernacular would destroy any hope of its potential? The entries in the urban dictionary, mostly Star Wars references easily lead me to interpret it as one of your usual immature insults, asserting my inferiority to your perceived superiority (you know your history). That's not a hard conclusion.
I don't know my history, apparently. I have over 100 posts on this account, now. If you tally those that are constructive and those that are argumentative, you will find it leans hugely in favor of being constructive. Let's also keep in mind that all but one post are constructive, if we disregard the fact that all, other argumentative posts I've made are
in response to other people behaving the exact, same way as I do. Like I said, less four letter words, same meaning. But no, everyone else is a saint and I am Satan, because I give slightly less of a sh*t about your feelings and slightly less of a sh*t about what is "acceptable insulting practice". Do you have any idea how stupid that is? "Acceptable insulting practice". That's what this whole ideology you have is about. I can be more coy, guiled, sarcastic and condescending than anyone you will ever meet, but it's less fun for me because when I go for it, people usually don't even realize I'm insulting them. Much less fun. Keep that in mind; I am under more attack than you are, for being an attacker. That is why this is stupid beyond recognition. It is playground psychology you and the others like you have. I don't know how old you are, but apparently you have a lot more growing up than I do when it comes to removing yourself from a confrontation and realizing what it actually is. Even if my dialog is often immature, at least I understand what this is. Also, if I remember correctly, I apologized (I doubt you know how rare that is, and you might not care); you could have let it die, but
you brought it back up.
You did.
"Padowan" is common language. I have seen one and a half Star Wars movies in my life and I know the word; therefore it is understandable for
me to assume something (you are not the only one with that right), which was that most people know what the word means. Also, I don't particularly see a difference; a need for patience is merely the abridged version of the comment which you will go on to call highly constructive. I can not believe you wrote a huge paragraph berating me because you had to look up a word, and subsequently misinterpreted the meaning of my comment. That is beyond ridiculous. Just outrageous! That is like trying to order food in a French and then screaming at the waiter when he brings you a steak, when you tried to order fish, not knowing French. It's exactly the same. I am not obligated to leave your video any comment, much less
obligated to leave an extensive one. If you wanted to know what I meant, you should have asked, not make wild assumptions about me insulting you.
Now, this I can understand. This is right on the money. This, anybody can compare my performance to and see exactly what you are talking about, clear and true constructive criticism. Why did you not right this in the first place? How on earth could I have gotten that out of "patience young padowan?" Do you see the difference?
Because, contrary to overwhelmingly popular belief, I am not "pompous" or "pretentious", and leaving a comment like that is just such. My taste in music may be "pretentious", and I am most certainly arrogant, but I am not those things. Had you engaged me and asked me what the meaning of my comment was, I would have then explained it to you.
It is often your mistake to think your ill manners constructive, and if people should avoid speaking to you, it has nothing to do with "constructive criticism," but with the rotten manners of a pretentious punk kid. You are perfectly capable of contributing to this forum; your real critique about proves that.
I don't think my manners are constructive to anything other than my own enjoyment, as doing what Alistair does in the face of ignorance, for instance, is less fun for me. The words that I actually type can be constructive; you just have to pay attention to them instead of the way I'm saying them. Your choice; most people don't. You come on this forum for enjoyment, and so do I. I'm not going to ruin my own time by being harassed and just taking it, which is what's happening. Where's the sympathy for me, eh? I bite back, I don't bite first; this is almost without variance. I just bite harder, and I get all the sh*t. It's so stupid. Just painfully stupid. Nobody pays attention to the context of my arguments; all you see are how many times I used the words "***" or "idiot", which is more than the other guy, which means I'm the evil one. Seriously, go find all the infamous threads of me tearing people up; I never start it. On here, for example. Go look in the "polls" sub-board of "Miscellaneous", "Hardest Classical Piece", and you'll find your little posse trying to start sh*t with me, going out of their way to piss me off. So, excuse me if I
get pissed off.
And Thal's idiotic argument that I post these threads to "show off my knowledge" or to "instigate trouble" is asinine. Trouble comes to me, I don't make it. Seriously. Look through the history of all my accounts. That's:
Skeptopotamus
Soliloquy
I_love_Xenakis
I_heart_Xenakis
s_bussotti
Ikedian
ferret_dance
meowmix
Oeillade
Probably others. If you actually care this much. You will see that I'm not the one who starts these fights; I'm just the one who ends them. Just like I apologized to you to try to end it, which is not my typical strategy, so to speak. But you brought it back up, and then bitched that it was being brought back up. What do you think is going to happen if you respond to this post in a civil manner? Do you think I will still be nasty? If you respond like you just did, of course I will. But if you act
the way you're telling me I'm supposed to act all I'm going to do is say "fine" and let it be done, which is what I always do. It's not me: it's you.
Let's take a look:
https://www.pianostreet.com/smf/index.php?topic=35908.msg412743#msg412743https://www.pianostreet.com/smf/index.php?topic=26169.msg412665#msg412665https://www.pianostreet.com/smf/index.php?topic=26169.msg412671#msg412671https://www.pianostreet.com/smf/index.php?topic=26169.msg412677#msg412677https://www.pianostreet.com/smf/index.php?topic=26054.msg412623#msg412623https://www.pianostreet.com/smf/index.php?topic=26054.msg412607#msg412607https://www.pianostreet.com/smf/index.php?topic=26054.msg412435#msg412435https://www.pianostreet.com/smf/index.php?topic=35841.msg412721#msg412721Undeniable harassment. So, excuse me if I don't deal with you civilly. Or, these people. Like I said, that one, big post had a lot of displaced anger from them to you which I
already apologized for, mistaking (possibly) you for being in their crowd, so to speak. So, if these people harass me, I am not allowed to retaliate? Are you the Gestapo or something? You like to insinuate that I'm crazy, but I want to know what sort of crazy, self-serving world it is you're trying to force on me. Because I don't want any part of it. I might seem crazy to you, but that's only because I'm sane enough, not rooted in sociostigma enough, to see what is actually going on.