I am trying to polish a piece for my lesson next week (janacek: in the mists no. 3) but it just doesn't feel like it's sitting right. I can't decide where I feel I should pull back, and how much I should, and certain dynamics etc. I've been working on it too long and I'm really struggling to feel inspired by it, even though it's beautiful. I'm always stopping because there are random notes that come out too harsh, or some that don't sound (and I know that's a technique thing) it's all a bit frustrating.
I'm also trying to polish the 1st movement from Haydn's F major sonata (still working on the 2nd and 3rd) and I'm finding that easier to do because it's a lot more structured and straight forwards, in terms of voicing and phrasing etc.
(I am also doing Bach's B-flat prelude + fugue (WTC 1), Schumann's Aufschwung (op. 12 no.2). I've put Bartok's piano suite, and Grieg's E minor sonata on hold for now)
When finishing a piece, is it like a painting where it is actually never finished? are you just choosing when to stop changing things and keep it how it is?
another problem is that I rarely perform, so I don't have pressure to finish stuff.
I simply don't enjoy it, but perhaps thats just circumstances and confidence etc... I love performing when I'm singing but piano is just so nerve-racking!
anyway, any thoughts or advice would be appreciated!!