Disappointing...

[cuberdrift]

I don't know if I should be criticised as a whiny, over-enthusiastic young musician who hasn't seen a tiny bit of the classical music realm yet, but let me first express a great disappointment I feel right now, as well as frequently so. I'm sure many of you know this as well...

It's that I believe music is an extremely powerful concept, perhaps simply the greatest and closest thing to me since childhood. It is simply such an ecstatic experience to hear a piece of great music. It's as if the world started being perfectly friendly with you, or it's as if the universe is dragging to another realm of existence.

However, despite all of this, I am terribly disappointed, and even haunted, by the fact that with all the power music has, I come to expect it to solve some of life's tangible problems. Sounds crazy?   Perhaps, but like I previously stated, music is so powerful, so divine, that I would often anticipate miracles to happen as a result. You know, eliminate sources of anxiety...blot out traumatic experiences...and perhaps provide me an aura, help me radiate a certain benevolence that might transform others into renewed people. Give them a deep form of joy, I suppose. I feel this whenever I see a great musician play - a great composition, simply seeing him in person, I could describe as part of heaven falling on earth.

NO. It doesn't. It simply won't. I play and play the most beautiful and daunting compositions, explode my musicality in a majestic improvisation, but it won't affect the person next to me one bit. At least, it doesn't seem to. I know he hears it, but it apparently looks as if a person won't ever be touched by music unless you tell him to.  

And NO, it won't offer any tangible solution to life problems. It seems to me a momentary escape from reality, a few minutes of great joy into the heart, and then it goes. Fades away, and looming sources of distress, worry, or anxiety, arise and haunt me once more.

This is where all the melancholy and regret about music lies within me. I thought music was...like Christ, almost...who could bring back the dead to life.

If we pianists, musicians, are unable to get our great message across...unlock its great secrets (if it has any at all  )...then what for would be lifelong dedication for it be?

Like I said, this is probably common to you, to us musicians in general, so I express a strong, earnest desire to hear your take on this.

[dima_76557]

The feeling of disappointment will go away as soon as you are capable of sincere and sacrificial love towards your Art and towards your target audience. In your development, you should never care about your ego (how do I look, how will they like what I do, I can't do it as fast as X, etc.).

In the real world we live in now, the reactions to a message are often more important than the message itself, and often for reasons that have absolutely nothing to do with what is said or shown. As a result, many would rather be dead than unliked, are not true to themselves, and send insincere, false messages out of pure insecurity. Such an attitude will never get you anywhere as an artist. Search and enjoy Art within yourself and do not worry so much about your place in the world of Art.

[hfmadopter]

The kind of power you speak of is not found in the music !

It is Christmas day though, so Merry Christmas !