Bernstein´s lectures are indeed marvelous and relate fundamentally to the topic at hand (indeed, spoiler coming, the "unanswered question" is precisely "Whither Music?").
I have the same "problem" as the OP in that I feel it necessary to be rational about everything. And, since I devote a huge amount of my time to music, I've tried countless times, without success, to explain myself WHY.
If I were to expose my thoughts on the topic, there woud be two possible outcomes: I would simply not post anything, or I'd write a big incoherent ramble.
So why write at all? I want to show you the ideas of some geniuses which I've found useful (in fact, these points of view have been exposed in the thread already):
- Zimerman (from
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SCzabFlmIlQ): "organizing people's emotions in time".
- Schnabel (from "My Life and Music", Dover): "The only medium by which to establish contact with musical ideas are tones. [...] By the art of music I understand here the comparatively very young art of
absolute music, and never applied or auxiliary music. This absolute, autonomous, independent music has developed into what is perhaps the most exclusive medium for the spiritual exaltation of the active individual in an intimate, private sphere of personal experience."
- Bernstein (this will be long but surely worthwhile; from "The Joy of Music", Amadeus Press): "Ultimately one must simply accept the loving fact that people enjoy listening to organized sound (
certain organized sounds, anyway); that this enjoyment can take the form of all kinds of responses from animal excitement to spiritual exaltation; and that people who can organize sounds so as to evoke the most exalted responses are commonly called geniuses. These axioms can neither be denied nor explained. But, in the great tradition of man burrowing through the darkness with his mind, hitting his head on cave walls, and sometimes perceiving a pinpoint of light, we can at least try to explain; in fact, there's no stopping us.
[...] has anyone ever successfully "explained" the
Eroica? Can anyone explain in mere prose the wonder of one note following or coinciding with another so that we feel that it's exactly how those notes
had to be? Of course not. No matter what rationalists we may profess to be, we are stopped cold at the border of this mystic area. It is not too much to say
mystic or even
magic: no art lover can be agnostic when the chips are down. If you love music, you are a believer, however dialectically you try to wriggle out of it."
- Gould (this quote would be really huge, so if you would've read it, you might as well enjoy the whole thing):
https://www.collectionscanada.gc.ca/glenngould/028010-4020.06-e.html