Let's see. Well, I am feeling a bit overwhelmed right now and wondering if I am trying to do too much. I wonder if I will ever do anything truly "well" ... or maybe I already am ? I think my life is about to take a serious "turn" or so ... and I think it's going in a direction that I am not sure I can handle. I am realizing that I will need to get even more focused, or at least more efficient.
And, it's interesting. While all of these things seem big to me, I know there are so many people in the world who have no idea who I am. They don't even imagine that I exist. I wonder, do I really know that they exist ? Do I imagine them ? So, I am not just small, or my life is not just small ... it's just non-existent in many ways. That's hard to explain and bit self-centered, I notice. Plus, many people have many bigger things going on than I... much scarier things than I ... I don't know.... life is strange sometimes.
I wonder if I will step up to the plate and find something new about myself or if I will fail miserably and be done. And, if I do step up to the plate, I wonder where that will take me and my life ... and how will that affect my husband ? I realize these are all questions that will only be answered with steps forward and by actually living my life. I just hope I am brave enough.
I have a lot of things on my mind right now. I wish I could somehow get them out ... sometimes it's a little too much... or something. I am not complaining about that, I just wonder what my limits are ? And, I wonder what life will look like in 20 years ? And, I wonder if the music inside of me has any place ...
My head :
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And, I wonder if it will ever be this :
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Or, maybe it will mostly likely be this ... LOL :
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