Why do I keep having bad dreams now?? Since that argument with my dad on friday I just keep having bad dreams every night!! that's five nights already! and I don't dream the same thing, I always dream something different... but it's always something scary and weird. And today was the weirdest for sure!!! I dreamt that my grandparents died... (in real life they all died already, one before I was even born, and two a few years ago of cancer and heart attack, and I don't know anything about one). so in my dream two of my grandparents died (don't really know which ones) and they were just there at home... we just left them there (I think for quite a long time).... and meanwhile I had to learn to read something and I had a teacher for that and I had to read outloud and I started reading but I just couldn't, I just couldn't even read one sentence, I read like two words and then I got lost and I didn't know where I was and I just didn't know how to read anymore (which was really scary too because I know how to read since I was 4 and that's one thing I really CAN do). So... after I realized I just couldn't read anymore me and my mum (or at least I thought she was my mum) went out.... and.... "my mum" had this bags in her hands..... and in those bags were dead bodies of my grandparents

..... and she was just going to throw the bags in the trash can!!!!

And she said if I could take the bags and go throw them into the trash can. And when I thought about that I just got shivers and I just said Oh no no no no no no no nooooo I can't do that!!! And so she went to throw them....... And I said I don't think thats allowed and I think she said something like that noone will find out anyway... and so then she said she had to go buy some clothes or something

... and we went to the store and it was closed already but she just went in anyway and by then I already knew she was not my mum... (I thought it was someone from a tv series) and I was looking at her and she took her sunglasses off and....... I realized she didn't even have a face!!!! all she had was something like a little circle with a mouth and nothing else aroud it!! just nothing!!!! and then I think I woke up.... and I just couldn't get the dead bodies and mouth without a face out off my mind.....
so now I wrote that cause I thought maybe that way it would go out off my mind....!