I think that with all good professional art comes a lot of sacrifice. Whether it be sacrifice regarding social life, time with family, money, another job etc. An artists life can often reflect a hermits life which is probably the greatest sacrifice we make for our craft. Sitting alone working hard, it is what music is more often than not.
Yes, well, I guess this is why it's so important that we know why we are doing it, and have a pretty clear idea on what our "craft" actually
is. I don't disagree with anything that you have posted.
If I have the choice between being a concert artist (with either voice or piano) but not having anything to say vs. being a musician who has mastered my craft, finds playing to be extremely fulfilling, and plays privately for loved ones, I would choose the latter. Of course, there is not truly a need to limit musicianship to that either, but my point is that my priority is on having the craft itself being what is fulfilling about playing it. And, if my "craft" were only to become a concert artist, there is no way for that to be fulfilling unless I happen to have a concert career, and even then, I think it would feel "empty" unless I have something to actually
say. And, watching the video, coupled with my own experiences and acquaintances, I see that it actually doesn't matter how much a person sacrifices nor how much they make music a piority in their life ... there is no guarantee. I have always known that on some level, but for some reason it became very obvious after watching this series.
For me, I can see that there is not just one way to go about all of this. And, there is definitely not just one way for music to be a very fulfilling endeavor, unless we box our own selves into that corner. I think that many people box their musicianship into corners, and when things don't pan out just the way they thought it would or could, or had prepared for their entire lives, then what ? Obviously there are some decisions to be made at that point. I just think it's quite sad to think of the hundreds of musicians that may be in the world, feeling perhaps lost just because their musicianship became boxed into a corner and suddenly they don't know what to do with themselves. If we want to imagine anything, let's imagine how many amazing musicians there are in the world who have a whole life inside of them that could keep growing. I just realize that I can be such a better listener.
Just above I said that if I have something to say that I do want listeners, and that is true, but I don't know who that is, exactly. I just know that I don't want to limit how that manifests itself. I don't want to box my musicianship into a corner. I am willing to find my audience individual by individual if that means that I am a living an authentic musical life ... of course, they can be found within a mass, too.
The point is, when I wake up at 3:30am in the morning because I want to be playing, I want it to be because there is something amazing being revealed to me in the music and I have to respond to it, not just because someday, somehow I hope that I can give a concert at Carnegie Hall. Carnegie Hall may (or may not) have its place in my life (I don't know), but if it does, I want it to be because my "voice" somehow led me there, step by step (person by person). In the meantime, there is life to be lived, yes. It's important that life is full and diverse.
I'm extremely sleepy.