dear ahinton, actually you and thal and leucippus and others are the key to my sanity. wierdly, i accept positive negative crit. i think about it. if i am unable to change the situation right away - i just let it sit in a container on the back porch for a while. but, if it is something easily resolved - i try to set in motion some kind of change.
the paranoia thing i have to put on the back porch and think about. so, i say - i don't like to fly in november. but, i do like to hear fine concerts. how can i resolve this? buy another bottle of australian wine - drink it before entering the airport. arrive in a fine state of mind - having slept - and enjoyed the flight. and off to the concert.
probably the hardest thing for me will to be to stop verbalizing any sort of fear. i will start today by catching myself saying negative things or fearful things. i did find a fearful thing in the 'cool ranch dorito's' bag. one of the dorito's, which i failed to look at before eating, was burnt to a crisp. some sort of evil halloween joke i am afraid. oops. i am not afraid. but, since it was there already i just chewed it anyway. kind of tasted like burnt toast.
btw, i take consolation in elspeth's escapades. vicariously living out the life i would lead if i had no fear (of bears, of darkness, of wierd noises, of my children saying 'boo', of the world coming to an end, of cars that might malfunction, of tubs that leak - but, my father fixed the tub with some kind of patch kit he found at a boating supply store, etc.)
jpianoflorida, did you say five acres each? that's really nice since you're not exactly on top of one another...and despite the difficulties with parents at times - you can take care of each other. i told my parents they could come and stay here for 2-3 months when they can't take the cold alaskan winters anymore- but i should have asked my husband first. he sometimes makes funny faces when i talk. don't want him gagging over a sentence.