I don't want to make light of your problem but it's very funny to me because one imagines that the sentence that comes next is going to be very, very important, explaining this terrible fear, and we will never know what it is. Therefore I will finish the quote from my own imagination, and invite others to do the same. Before anyone gets irritated at me again since it seems that has been happening a lot around here lately, let it be known that by posting these irrevent "completions" we are keeping this poor fellow's topic at the top of the heap just in case someone comes along who does have this book.
”The general hostility to the idea of method derives much of its vitality, i believe, from a half-conscious and almost universal suspicion that there is a fundamental incompatibility with a mind interested in the mechanical phases of playing and a mind filled with what is loosely known as musical temperament. There is a fear, furthermore, that a persistent use of the reasoning mind in reference to the mechanismus will cause a complete and total mental breakdown, inviting the heretofore unheard-of possibility of the teacher's destruction along with the student's. The abovementioned hatred serves as a social filtering device, protecting the wiser from destruction by deranged, deadly students clamped to a method like the village idiot in the stocks."
Walter Ramsey