I'm afraid I am very dull when it comes to major decisions. My type of psyche finds it next to impossible to understand people like Lewis, who by his own admission seemed to have no idea why he made life choices, but just made them instantly in quasi mystical fashion - "diving into water" or "while riding a motorcycle to the zoo". I am closer to the Huxley mentality, which finds solutions best under conditions of deep intellect, stasis and serenity rather than emotional chaos and crisis. Everything about me is slow (except my musical creation !) , and I seem to require prolonged contemplation in order that insight may occur. I have tried the other way, of course, you try everything when you are younger, but I brought sufficient discomfort on myself to learn that it just doesn't work for me. Also, I deeply distrust anything which does not promote a syncretic whole in all of life's aspects. I like everything to be connected to everything else while still evolving dynamically. Rather an alarming number of my friends persist in making life decisions which essentially negate their previous deeply felt states of mind, thus cutting off bits of their past consciousness, as it were. The trouble is that they seem to keep on and on with these drastic changes, each of which negates the last. Consequently many of them , now in their fifties and sixties, are very restless and unhappy, although in some cases materially successful. Of course, they may see me as a singularly dull individual. If they do they are probably too polite to say.
Topic: CS Lewis Space Trilogy