faulty damper, on your second point:Really? Hmmm, never noticed that actually, that's interesting you say that because I always thought I did legato quite well =/ I'll definitely be more aware of it next time though, thanks a lot
Joey, yeah I noticed that after I watched it back, so I tried lowering it - I just need to "standardize" my position, it's REALLY annoying when I come back to my piano in the morning and find some idiot has been spinning it round and round and mucked up the height, and it's such an art to get it just right.It always bugs me when I'm playing, I'm always thinking "wait, is my position correct? If I never get my position correct it's gonna f*ck me up for life..."
But isn't that slight accent the very nature of a piano? Each note starts with a hit of a string and then the loudness decreases.
I don't quite know how to word this, but let me start by saying I am extremely frustrated at the moment.Lately I have been suffering from long periods of "blockage", both mental and physical it seems, where every time I attempt to play the piano, all of my "technique" (it's debatable whether I have any) just goes flying out the window.I mess up technically, musically fails to come through, I mess up phrasing, pedaling etc - Before long, I end up frustrated and stressed, kick the piano and myself and walk away cursing.I am 17. I first started getting interested in piano around the age of 13, but could only afford a crappy electric keyboard to play on, until last Christmas when I bought myself a full size digital (Casio CDP100). Decent model, but lately I'm getting pissed off with it's sound and touch quality.I've only had 1 teacher for a while in secondary school, but I don't want one now because they confuse me, pressure me and I play terribly around them. Plus I just can't afford one. I can read music a little, but no where near enough to sight read. I learn by ear and Synthesia to read the notes (cheating I know, a music teacher wouldn't be impressed)As you can see, I've had a pretty erratic learning process, and now I am starting to think whether I have learnt completely the wrong way, and it can't be undone. I don't see why, but I seem to have lost my touch. I don't wish to be a professional concert pianist or anything, but it is just SO frustrating when I spend many hours of the day listening to classical music, and I have so much music bottled up inside me and I can't get it out the way I want it to...What AM I doing wrong exactly? I used to think I had a talent for piano, but now I think otherwise. I'm never satisfied with ANYTHING I play anymore. Is there anything I can do to get past this? Is it normal for learners to go through this? If so, what can I do about it?I think I better give you some examples of my piano playing, so you can judge for yourself: (Fur Elise)Sorry they are so cliche, I know people on here always go on about Rachmaninoff and the likes, but I'm no child prodigy, so...I'm learning Clair De Lune at the moment. Or rather, I were - I can't seem to make the theme sing anymore, it comes out sounding very flat... Please can anybody out there help me? Thank you for reading this mess