"Acceptance"

[m1469]

At the pace of devastation.

[furtwaengler]

As I listen things came together. The first is how individual and unique a voice yours is. It is like Birtwistle - not in in any physical, aesthetic, musical sense is it like Birtwistle - But it is like Birtwistle in that everything Birtwistle touches comes out sounding exactly like Birtwistle, no matter what form or structure or technique or combination of timbres, his music always sounds exactly like his music, and like nobody else's music does it sound like. In this respect you are absolutely who you are no matter what you're doing - and this is actually impossible to imitate or match.

The second is that these traits are not without the happy influence of other such individuals. Something in this that peaked my interest is that I can see in the resonance both how Wolfi has influenced you, and how you have influenced Wolfi - a pure, musical relationship.

The third is a very certain picture in my mind. And such pictures are not the coat stapled to the sound...it is not a limiting factor, and everybody else probably congers up their own such picture. Just as the silent surveillance videos of the 2008 Parkersburg tornado became suitable to set music which existed over three years prior (in my thread), by the end of "Acceptance" I was convinced it would be an appropriate setting for John McCrae's "In Flanders Fields."

https://www.greatwar.co.uk/poems/john-mccrae-in-flanders-fields.htm

[pianowolfi]

I can't believe I haven't commented yet. But I remember that I have listened at least once to it before.
This sounds like it's coming from profound experiences. It leaves me in a thoughtful but not at all sad state, it's like finding a place of meditative calmness and concentration.

To the heart of the world. That is where your music and your musical journey tends to go, in my perception.

[m1469]

Thank you both for your comments.  This is actually an improvisation which came from a very certain "place" within me ... and one which I remember a thought before I started, I remember a couple of ideas while I was going, and then I was at the end and it's as though I didn't even know for sure what had happened.  That is not *altogether* different for me than some of my other improvs, yet somehow this was still actually a very different experience, at the same time.

For me, I had felt at this particular time, as though I could more or less finally reveal a certain musical sense (though, this is not as it seems) and in this case, to a very certain individual (who was not with me at the time).  I haven't told this individual about this (and I'm not certain I will), but in my own being I was communicating with this individual in a way that was such a deep relief for me to be able to communicate.  In that sense, the best way to describe it is as though a dam were perhaps broken and finally I could release something deep (for me) through a channel.  It is a kind of beginning to a particular musical world, and a particular kind of communication through the language of what we call music.  In this case, I was not aiming to be musical; I was aiming solely to communicate in a language that can't be replicated by typical words.

Thank you both, so much, for listening and for commenting.