So, I got up and came to the forum and saw the post about the Queen Elizabeth Competition livestream, so I turned it on and the performer had just started the Chopin Ballade in g minor -which was an interesting coincidence- and so I watched.
I finally got over my week-long dip. The most famous pianist in my country criticized me REALLY hard in front of 8 other piano students atoms my age, but he was super kind to all the others (he know most of them, it was the first time i met him). I have felt worthless and have cried a lot the past week, but after an awesome lesson with one of my teachers i'm on the right track again!