i agree with m1469, and would add "to dance the Dance"

if you haven't yourself found meaning, then no one can tell you (that's the nature of this kind of thing)

what is the point of the ocean? the flowers in the garden? the clouds in the sky?
you sound just like me. i was ready to kill myself a while ago, and for a long time was seriously suicidal. i don't have those thoughts anymore, and yet nothing external to me has changed.
some quotes that bring me solace in times of despair:
"i am not interested in immortality; only in the taste of tea." - some bloke
"and in my darkest moment fetal and weeping,
the Moon tells me a secret, my confidant
as full and bright as i am, this light is not my own and
a million light reflections pass over me
the Source is bright and endless; She
resuscitates the hopeless. without her
we are lifeless satellites, drifting
and as i pull my head out, i am without one doubt
don't wanna be down here soothing my narcissism, i
must crucify the ego, before it's far too late
i pray the light lifts me out
before i pine away"
- lyrics from "Reflection" (Tool)
"Actions which are conscious expressions of the turn-on, tune-in, drop-out rhythm are religious.
The wise person devotes his life exclusively to the religious search — for therein is found the only ecstasy, the only meaning. Anything else is a competitive quarrel over (or Hollywood-love sharing of) studio props." - Timothy Leary
note that the word "religion" comes from a latin (i think?) word meaning "to reconnect," and it is in this sense (and
only this sense) in which the word is to be interpreted in the quote above
pianowolfi knows what it's all about, too