“For I consider that music is, by its very nature, essentially powerless to express anything at all, whether a feeling, an attitude of mind, a psychological mood, a phenomenon of nature, etc…If, as is nearly always the case, music appears to express something, this is only an illusion and not a reality. It is simply an additional attribute which, by tacit and inveterate agreement, we have lent it, thrust upon it, as a label, a convention---in short, an aspect unconsciously or by force of habit, we have come to confuse with its essential being.”
[T]he ability to confidently express something in music, requires you to at least sometimes attempt to express something through free improvisation and or composition, not based in theory but based in simply listening, imagining a sound and attempting to play it.Or, if you're not going to compose, the same principal applied when using other composers works as a guide, but its harder to get the idea across of what actually has to happen inside your head if you do it that way i think. Our own thoughts, or the process of thinking music ideally must be first understood before you start trying to make sense of someone else's more complicated musical thoughts.
Not exectly a disagreement, I think, but a difference in approach or conception.
My "Or, if you're not going to compose" paragraph was intended to reflect you're approach as a valid one.. the critical element is making a conscious choice to express a sound, conceiving it in your mind and attempting to play it at the same time.I think that its better developed early on through improvisation/composition/playing by ear.. but its not impossible to learn while only playing from a score.. obviously, since you exist.I don't think your not improvising reflects an inability to do so - I suspect you have the skill and don't frequently use it. Different to someone who doesnt concieve sound like that and just locks up, unable to express either through a composers work or their own....But then again, I do use both approaches to teach it.. hmm..