Trying hard to return to piano

[vrixton]

I used to be a member on here, but it seems my account was deleted. Then again, it was -years- ago.
So since I stopped visiting, I devoted much more of my time to graduating high school and especially to piano. I received my Piano Guild HS Diploma [10 piece program! Woohoo!] with a number of difficult piece [or at least they were for me] including the ever-popular g minor prelude by Rach, Prelude and Fugue 21 from WTC1, some Faure, Scott, Liadov, and a little Mozart for instance.
Sad thing is, I wasn't really able to enjoy it because I was wildly nervous, my hands were shaking as I played, and I was just certain it was a failure, although everyone loved it [I've now been diagnosed with a Panic/Anxiety disorder, so there's that haha]

But when I graduated, my health started failing, and by the time I'd actually moved out to college to study piano full time, I was falling down like a non-fainting goat, seizing, and just generally a mess. Turns out I'm not just panicky, that panic converts itself into seizure-like convulsions. On top of that, add a blood sugar problem and you can see my dilemma.

Well it got so bad I had to withdraw [mostly because I only JUST started getting a little better in physical therapy, and this is 2-3 years later] and have been at home, unable to get to my piano.

I have a keyboard in my room [a cheap synthesizer of 5 octaves] which I just cleaned off, so I tried some Hanon today and did fairly well. Tried some other pieces, but apparently I don't deal with well stretches or jumps yet...

So my question to you after this long text-vomit:
What are some suggestions for interesting but easy music, preferably slow in nature and not with a lot of jumps or stretches that fit a keyboard of 2 bass and 3 treble octaves? Preferably early music or modern
Do you have any suggestions for improvement? I know I should slow down, but what kind of exercises should I be practicing? [like with said jumps and stretches]

[outin]

Why don't you take on some Scarlatti sonatas? There are slow, fast, easy or difficult among them so lots to choose from, all available free on imslp.org and interesting musically as well.

Or of course some Bach if you prefer that...

[ranniks]

Why don't you take on some Scarlatti sonatas? There are slow, fast, easy or difficult among them so lots to choose from, all available free on imslp.org and interesting musically as well.

Or of course some Bach if you prefer that...

Bach:3.

[hfmadopter]

Your symptoms are very similar to mine or how mine were when I was younger, long since medicated for it. Though mine were/are supposedly based off migrane, the result is similar and I've often questioned if it really is not anxiety based instead, though the migrane causes anxiety I suppose. The biggest problem I had was the medication itself which fogged my ability to be sharp at learning and playing the piano. I was as sharp as I was ever going to be when this medication came along at about the 10 year mark of study. But like you I couldn't be flopping around all over the place either ! The biggest mistake I made was stopping playing, it's just plain rediculous that I stopped for years, there is just too much music to enjoy out there !!

There is just tons of music out there that you can go to work on. You already have some suggestions but I've been enjoying some of David Nevues arrangements for instance. Not really hard to learn and nice sounding if you like that sort of music that is. His work has enough skill needed to make it sound polished when completed, it's calming music too and you can probably work it out to fit your keyboard, some may fit as is.

What ever you do just stick with the piano !