Stuck in the mud!

[katefarquharson]

So I feel a bit frustrated.

I've moved country, been in south africa for almost a year now. I just started with a new teacher after about 18 months away from having lessons (I'm 18).

I have lessons at the university music department here and my teacher is great. I just feel like I am not really enjoying playing that much anymore I mean I LOVE the piano, always have but I'm starting to not enjoy actually playing as opposed to listening. Quitting is totally not an option, I'm wondering if this is a phase. But I just notice how so many people are absolutely obsessed with playing, and are so passionate about it and I feel like a bit of a cheat cos I don't feel as passionate as I wish I was!!

I'm working on Bartok's piano suite op. 14 and Grieg's sonata in E minor op.7 , as well as Hadyn's F major sonata no. 38. It's absolutely incredible music, very challenging for me. I loooove listening to recordings and recitals more than when I actually sit and play it myself. I don't know why but I feel guilty for that!!!

[hfmadopter]

Can only speak for myself, when this sort of thing happens it's time to do one of two things.

#1 Back off to easier music and enjoyable music for a bit. Just don't get stuck in that rut.

#2 The better option for me, maybe for you as well. Plan a performance ! If you do this you will be fully involved in your music or should be anyway.

David