I have this notion that it's possible, and desirable, to somehow have this extremely deep experience as a performer, and for the audience to somehow walk out changed. I can get simple joy from eating ice cream or enchiladas ... or watching TV. I mean, they aren't exactly fulfilling forever, but that's what I mean regarding music, too ... can't it be something that stays with an individual in a way that is beyond just a passing thrill of some sort?
I don't know exactly where I have that notion. And, I don't say that as though I have never been affected as a listener because I have. I also realize it can seem to place a large responsibility or perhaps unusual responsibility on the performer - beyond notes and even just being "musical." As a performer myself, I don't feel that I've ever once achieved that as a singer, except for maybe sometimes when I solo at church, and perhaps I've achieved it in parts as a pianist, but I've still got a lot of other stuff to organize as a performing pianist, too.
It's more just that I have that urge, and I'm not sure why.