BUT I realized that musically I am much better than before, because now I listen to what I play.
Welcome! This is a great group.Something I've found as a "rebounder": I actually am ready to put in the time to be better....when I was younger I was far more impatient.
I'm one who needs a performance of some sort in the works and then prepare the repertoire for that performance. That is a throw back to my earlier years where we had workshops to prep for and I did my own recitals as well.