- I still need my own practice time and some sort of fuel for my own growth, of which is currently extremely limited. So here again, I must basically ignore a very deep and important part of myself that very much wants my attention but to which I cannot give it.
I think this happens with teachers, the key is giving of yourself so others can grow. And often it is taxing on ones own growth regarding the same arena, I.E. musical growth. Instead the growth is about how to teach better and better, perhaps. I see the complexity of your situation for sure.