Thank you to the three of you! Actually, Ian, that is quite well put and helps me think a bit.
There are three main areas that I have been thinking about with regard to tradition:
1. Religious
2. Music
3. Social/Cultural
Of course those are or can be quite tied together. I have quite a few thoughts about all of that, but those thoughts are not fully at the surface and a bit difficult to make heads or tails of them just yet.
Using my own life and experience as a means for gaining some kind of perspective on the rest of life, one of the biggest conundrums for me is how to reconcile my deep desire to study concepts about music and life, many of which include tradition, but to not have any visible place within the support system of tradition itself. As an adult learner of the piano/music -a very non-traditional student by Classical standards- Classical music tradition has not exactly extended its hand to me. Well, it has and it hasn't.
As a vocalist, I have come to accept that it is possible I may have one of the more unique voices of the Century. But tradition gives me very little, if anything, to stand on currently. It doesn't matter how unique a voice may be, it doesn't matter how well one might sing traditional music, what matters is whether or not a person grew into the musical world in what is currently considered the traditional way, and I didn't.
I also have a true and real desire to be a blessing to the world with my music; pianistically, vocally, compositionally, and pedagogically. Let's say tradition gave me an opportunity to visibly express this - is tradition really set up in a way that allows something non-traditional to truly come near the hearts of its followers? As in, I have come to realize over this last year/eternity that more than any other thing, whatever I do in my life, I want it to have substance. The substance of depth, vitality, connectedness, life, truth, etc.. Even if I became a famous musician and that with plenty of money but did not feel substance in what I was doing, that's not a life I would aim for, either. My actual, primary aim in life in general is for substance, and I wonder - does this lead me to or away from tradition, and specifically the tradition(s) of Classical Music? If it is the latter -away from it- and if individuals within the tradition are repelled by me because of my aims, I find that quite curious.
These are not complete thoughts and it is not actually meant to be about me - it is just that, I aim to take my own life as objectively as possible, and learn from it as best as I can, and living this experience has brought about some interesting perspectives.