Greetings, all! Here's the thing; lately, I have started becoming more ambitious about piano playing than before. I used to rely on my musicality; I used to stick to routines, pay some attention to the piece's nuances, do my scales, arpeggios, without too much concentration; I used to practice with a metronome, to "clean up" my pieces.That was how I practiced.But then I realized that people get bored in concerts. To most people, classical music is all the same, whether from Mozart or Bartok, Brahms or Shostakovich, Ravel or Couperin.Then I started to get annoyed about things. About the state of things.Then I had all these idols - Horowitz, Cziffra, Arrau...even Art Tatum or Oscar Peterson.Then I got mesmerized by their playing. By their sheer skill. And most of all, what they could share about life - how they could make you experience their own, without uttering a single word. How they could communicate things, or a language, that was a little bit strange, but beautiful in some way.People called it music.Then I decided that I wanted to stun people. I wanted them to wake up. I wanted to "control their souls" (I remember reading about Rubinstein mentioning about this in a conversation with Gould). I wanted to change it all - to change how everything about classical music is mere admiration rather than love, about how it seems to affect the eyes and the ears, but not much the heart, of many a person.Then there were these young women.There were a few of them; just a few; a handful would be pushing it a bit; but they had something. They had a heat about them - heat that could not be felt in the literal sense, but in a somewhat emotional, aesthetic, perhaps even cerebral, sense. I don't even feel like assigning the usual adjectives here to describe such a sensation.Their heat radiated within my psyche, whether they were present before me, or not.And there was also a coolness about them. Not the biting cold of the winter wind, but the coolness felt under a quiet night under the moonlight, with the silence, the serenity, and the ethereal quality of it all. Most of them I didn't even know. But part of my mind kept telling me, in such a serious voice, that I needed to know who they were. That I needed to influence them in some way. That I needed to somehow establish that connection I had with my own psyche, and some sort of angelic, muse-like being that would dwell in my mind - and in my soul, who represented all the "ethereal" qualities that these young women had.But I always got disappointed with things. I knew that it would be difficult to appease this Muse. For some reason, it preferred other things - other people - people I started to get annoyed about, because I got jealous. Jealous that they had some thing that I wasn't well-versed at. Something that I didn't have, and could use it so well, and so naturally, to their advantage; not that I actually wanted it, in fact - and what an irony that is, indeed.And then I learned that what I truly loved, what I honestly liked, that which constantly made me overjoyed, was this thing called music. Then I told myself - maybe if I was really good at playing music, then, perhaps like the Roman god Pan, I could influence the souls of those "angels", even if I didn't quite have the usual advantages of someone who was naturally good with them. I could tell them, non-verbally, that I had a spirit that had as much vigor and character as theirs. And then I would be overjoyed.I would be overjoyed that finally, I managed to establish a connection with their psyche. I would be overjoyed that they started to like what I myself had liked, and loved. It's quite hard to describe; all I know is that I tend to become so happy, and so overjoyed, if they do like, and love, the message that I would share with them.But I had to be good. Really good!And then I started noticing that, although I could play the piano - and I liked it when people admired my playing, too, for it meant that in the eyes of my fellow men, I was someone of value, somehow - it was somehow not enough.Of course, I still believe in my own abilities. I believe that I still have something to communicate about, something to share - in other words, I think I have some proficiency in piano playing.But I want it to be stronger.I wanted to refine my ability to channel those passions found within music even more - and this I had to do, if I wanted to make others - these "angels" included - love the message that I would wholeheartedly share with them.And then I started searching for ways to make the music I played sound not just "acceptable", but truly stunning - even "beautiful", maybe, if I got fortunate - to make it reach the hearts of my fellow men, not just approval.Because I loved all these composers of old. They were all such fantastic beings. They all had such magic about them - Bach; Beethoven; Mozart; Chopin; Liszt, to name but a few. And I got so enamored and overwhelmed at the things they had in their head, which they preserved on sound, and on paper.And I wanted people - these "angels", especially - to understand that I had in my soul an endearing and beloved connection to all these awesome peoples' immortal spirits. I wanted them to experience my bringing about the glory and wonder of it all back today. And then I would know that they'd be overjoyed. And then I would be happy.But HOW?!I got super-sensitive to nuances. I got so picky about sound. I wanted everything to sound new, to sound stunning, and amazing, and awesome and all that.And although I could achieve this at times, through well-focused practice, generally I just get confused about things.I just simply don't know how to practice well-enough to be able to play a piece in such a way that I unleash the wonders of it.Should I be using a metronome? Should I be doing slow practice? Should I pay attention to how my hands strike the keys, or to the sound?Right now, I have three main ideas on how to practice a piece;1.) I call it the "Gould" way - it may not have too much to do with Glenn Gould, by the way, but I call it so, because I read somewhere that Gould said something like "one does not play the piano with his hands, but rather, with his mind".This "Gould's way" simply means thinking intently the sound you want to create while playing the piece.I think this is quite an efficient way to get the piece to sound like the way you want it to, but it drains my mental energy quite quickly. And particularly for fast pieces, I might be able to do it a slowed-down tempo, but when I speed it up to the performance tempo, the nuances tend to get lost. It is as if the piece only sounds good while thinking hard that I want it to sound good.Should I then apply this "Gould's method/way" to a passage several times, slowly, then getting gradually faster and faster until I reach the desired tempo? What is your advice on it?Okay...2) The second method I have in mind is something I call the "Beethoven way" - because I heard that when Beethoven composed, he would keep revising it until it suited him. This "Beethoven" way is quite effective in helping me discover the sound I want to hear from the piece. It works well in a slowed-down tempo; but also at a fast tempo, if I can manage it technically.However, again, it might help me get the piece to sound right for a moment, but when I repeat it again, it sometimes becomes wrong, and then I have to revise and revise it all over again until it "sounds right".What is your advice on this?3) The third method is what I call the "Clementi method" - because I read somewhere that, if I can recall correctly, Clementi said something like "to play a passage right, first think of how it should sound like, then find out the right technique to make it sound as such, then play it".So it's basically that - before even hitting the keys, I think first of how I want it to sound like. I can sing it in my head, or literally, sometimes - the thing is, I have to be sure of the sound I want to achieve from the passage. Then, I think of the manner of how I should play the keys - the technique of doing it.So far, I think this might be the most effective way to practice, since it involves mental practice. However, I somehow still don't have full confidence that I will be able to rely on it for my practice sessions.--So, what do you think? What are your suggestions? Are the methods that I have listed down effective? Have they been discussed before, and if so, where?I have written this all in good spirit, and am so glad about it, about the opportunity of doing this. I thank God for such a blessing.Thank you, all!Best regards,cuberdriftP.S. Sorry if you find my post quite long - I have a lot of ideas, he-he (actually, I admire its length) .
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