I got divorced guys. My musical partner of 26 years is no longer in my life. It's been hard to play and I have quit teaching and started working in another field for a while. I have realized lately that he really wasn't a part of my skill and that I had progressed far ahead of him as a musician. That concert I gave in February made that abundantly clear and my marriage fell apart not long after that event. I disconnected from online media almost completely for months. I heard that you all were worried and I am moved by that especially given recent events.I was always suggesting that having a relationship with a musician was the way to go...now I am not so sure. I know that it's not wise to wrap up your music into a codependent setting...not wise at all.I have played a few gigs and in time I will play more. Physically I am just fine...I look better than I have in years. Anyone else experience anything like this please tell me how you coped. I posted this in performance due to its enormous effect in that area.
Now you can fully focus on yourself, something that I'm sure you haven't done for a long time.
I divorced an ex-wife who we did alot of gigs together as she was a singer. But that had nothing to do with the heart-break that ensued. For me the way I coped at the time was by writing songs ( Songs with words, very sad words ). That really was helpful for me to try to be clever and creative about a sad situation. It gave me a grip to hold that emotion in my hand from beginning to end and then have something to call mine. I also continued to play gigs, but did stop for a while. I can understand how depression causes one to change what they want to do. All that said, I can say I really like your posts about Jazz theory. It reminds me so much of a Jazz teacher I once had , it all went over my head then, just like now, can I just play a G7 please ? :-)