AJ – hope all is well. Great question. My answer will not be what you are looking for, unfortunately. My father was a college professor that taught philosophy. I remember overhearing discussions as a young child that he had with his college students he invited home. My father never had philosophical discussions with me or my brother and sister.
I have very strong philosophical opinions on many areas of philosophy, but I will admit I have never read any books on philosophy or studied philosophy in any way. So, what does that make me? A bad philosopher? Perhaps. What is my philosophy on existentialism? First, I read the definition of the word – then I will have thoughts on this I am sure. My philosophy is personal to myself and has served me well so far.
My son is very interested in German Idealism and Kant, Hagel… His favorite is Fichte. I may disagree with many or most of the beliefs of German idealists as he describes to me, but I listen and understand what my son describes to me and I encourage my son to study and pursue his beliefs. Kant view of ethics - sounds good as described by my son.
So, I just looked up existentialism: a philosophy that emphasizes individual existence, freedom and choice. It is the view that humans define their own meaning in life, and try to make rational decisions despite existing in an irrational universe.
My thoughts: We are all subject to the laws of physics. How can I be free if my dream is to fly around like I do in my dreams and without any help from any devise? What if I wanted to be free of the forces of gravity? Do I have a choice? Perhaps I need to modify my wishes and desires. But is this by my choice or am I being forced to modify my wishes by father physics? I could ramble on and on.
We all as humans have to be philosophers to answer questions about existence, knowledge, values, etc. Some may need to search outwards for such answers, others may need to reach inwards. Hopefully we all are able to be reasonably at peace with our explanations of things.
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Why don't I read and study philosophy now? Answer: I am very at peace with my explanation of things and I do not plan on teaching those beliefs to others.