I feel in love badly with a Bechstein Residence R4 instrument…the way it sounds and the way it feels under the fingers is just poetry. The R6 was just as wonderful, but felt slightly heavier to play. Both instruments cost way more than what I had anticipated spending, but my main concern is that I cannot even remotely bring out their potential when I play them myself, although I can hear what they can do under experienced hands. I am wondering whether it is a huge overkill to get such an instrument now and whether I will ever grow into it, or how long will it take before my skills match its potential. The budget is not an existential problem, but it feels like overindulgence. I am worried that if I settle for an instrument that excites me less I will regret it, but if I do the crazy thing of getting a concert-level upright as a beginner, I will feel like I cannot do it justice for years to come. Any thoughts?