Chopin's g minor Ballade - oh again!

[dinosaurtales]

 

OK I guess I need moral support or something.  I have been working on this for a while, and for some reason I am having the most trouble with the FIRST PAGE - that's right - the main theme.

I know how I want the "big" phrases to grow and shrink, and how I want the melodic line to come out, and how I want the bass to come out - but just a little less, and how I want the chord to be even less, and the pedalling.  BUT I CAN'T seem to be able to make myself do it - at least not all of those at the same time.  I swear it's like learning a golf swing - anybody else know what I mean?