Jonathan:
If it is really affecting you to the point of "mental collapse" then, especially at your age, you must seek help right now. A visit to the doctor and various other specialists is certainly justified in order to eliminate those causes of tinnitus which are actually physical and can be treated physically. If it turns out to be in the brain, as they seem to think is the case with most tinnitus, then there are therapists who can teach you ways of handling it so it does not interfere with your life.
It is important and comforting to know that that you are not alone. Indeed, tinnitus is very, very common. There exist support organisations whose members can help you handle it. Do not hesitate to contact them.
I am going to the school nurse this monday, and see what the cause might be, and hopefully, she'll send me to a doctor to look at it. I do feel I need to explain a little more what I meant with a "mental collapse". Perhaps they were not the best words I could have chosen.
First of all, the past three months have been quite miserable overall, I'm not going to tell you about all the problems, it's enough to say I have been feeling quite down a lot of the time. Now, wednesday and thursday I played a lot of piano, I am currently working on Bach, which I find very difficult. You see all, I am a lousy sightreader, but I am a very good memoriser, but Bach is more difficult to memorise than anything I have been playing before, and I do not enjoy playing the music very much either.
So, I had been focusing for two days in a row, first in school and then even more when playing it home. The night from wednesday to thursday I slept six or seven hours, and that is a lot less then I need. I was quite run down mentally, emotionally etc. And the tinnitus more like triggered this little collapse of mine rather then actually causing it. I think the tinnitus might have been worse by focusing so hard on the pieces. I have already recovered, and this morning after a good night sleep, the tinnitus wasn't as loud at all.
Hi,
I can't say much about tinnitus besides that I have tinnitus too ( a'''' , both ears), it's sometimes very annoying and loud, sometimes it's not so loud and I am able to ignore it.
The other thing with your teacher, who has "great plans" with you, seems to me quite strange. You do play piano only for a little more than 1 year, and she talks about making a "concert pianist" out of you? This can't be a serious consideration. Is she an astrologer? What pieces have you played until now?
If I were you, I would make much more thoughts whether I could trust such a teacher who seemingly wants to get control over your life and lead you in a very doubtful direction.
Well, I could write down my current repertoire if that is what you are meaning. These pieces are all memorised, or I am working on memorising them:
Liebesträume no.3 - Franz Liszt
Sonata pathetiqué first movement - Beethoven (working on this one)
Impromptu no 4 in Ab - Franz Schubert
Minute waltz, mazurka op.6 no 1, Military polonaise in A - Frederic Chopin
Two part inventions no.1, 13 and 14, prelude and fugue in Bb - Bach
Solfeggietto - Carl Philip Emmanuel Bach
I think that is pretty much it. I will soon start playing Chopin etudes, after christmas I think.
Now, my piano teacher is great. She had the same teacher as Zimmerman, and she knows music very good. I wouldn't have any other teacher, she really is great. It is not that she wants to take control over my life at all, like you describe, it is not true.
Thanks for your posts, ted and counterpoint. It all feels better today, and I'll tell you guys how it develops after I have went to the school nurse.