Hello !
I'm new on this forum, and wanted to ask a question that is quite vital for me : Am I made to play piano ?
To explain : When I'm NOT playing piano, I often think about it, about the many pieces I'd want to play, etc... but JUST BEFORE playing I've a strange feeling : a fear of playing, I say to me : "Well you're gonna play later, this evening, etc" - it seems I want to avoid playing piano.
And when i'm playing, I seem bored, the total opposite of the feeling I had when I wasn't playing piano : I'm discouraged, even when a piece of my repertoire seems good I always think that I played it quite bad, etc; and it really blocks me in my piano studies.
To resume, it's quite a paradoxal feeling depending of the moments : when i'm not playing i want to play, when i'm playing piano bores me ... :-/...
I don't know if you can help me or anything, but I'd be glad to have any helps, suggestions, etc... because I'm really in trouble these days because of that.
PS : And sorry for my english, i'm not really used to write it.