when my computer is down, i feel deranged. i sort of of knew there might be a lot of 'catching up' today. wow. tessie two backs?, hinton test, sock stuffing, double accounting - these are all ponderous things. i suppose the first thing i thought when thal mentioned his old girlfriend was that thal must be a kind person. there's somewhere in the bible that mentions the 'spiritual man/woman' being renewed day by day. that he looks on the heart of a person and not their physical looks so much. in our society - looks are sort of a defining characteristic as to how much attention one gets. but, often very nice people are overlooked. although a lot of models seem to get attention by being anorexic.
i think when i was 13, some guy told me i had my bra on backwards. i was so mad at him, but never said anything back. nowdays, there must be something in the milk (people say growth hormones) as my daughter who is barely 12 is stacked already. one radio show i heard said that girls develop faster now and some do because they lack a father/daughter relationship and it's a biological thing to protect themselves or something. the thing is, with my daughter - she's very close to her dad and i think it's done the opposite. i never worry when they go out to movies and stuff - because i know she's just eating popcorn and having a good time. no guy is hitting on her yet.
this all is too profound. i'd say that if anyone grew up like me - looking in awe at the girls in school and wondering what happened to themselves - take heart. i was a very skinny tall girl. often mistaken for model or whatever and accentuated my legs. but, girls, take heart - when you have a baby these things are solved. and the more children you have the bigger they seem to get. when i had my son - i purposely wore cleavage material as it was the first time i really had definable cleavage. now, it's like i'm glad i wasn't huge in the beginning because the weight of it all can add up as you get older. if you're smaller to start with - your boobs dont' droop much when you get bigger. if you start big and get bigger - you've got droopiness to contend with. that's my two cents.
and, i think teens that are 18-24 should not even think about breast enlargement (plastic surgery) until they are sure what they are going to do in terms of a family. i think breasts are partly for attraction and partly for feeding a baby. if they are uncomfortably large and weighty - or sore from surgery - they don't really help feeding a child. and, if you're going to get 'natural' breast enlargement from pregnancy - why pay for it?!
sometimes i think - why do bra sizes even matter. men don't typically go around measure their 'thingy' and commenting on the size do they? well, some might. but, typically it isn't a defining feature of a man. it's the same with breasts. but, secretly it is used in advertising everywhere. even in the parking lot of the mall here. i always part at 34B instead of 44C or D. i think that typically women are prone to park where they are most comfortable. of course, timothy42b has an obvious preference for something?! i hope it's not sock stuffing. nowdays they have these gel things for people who've had cancer. i think it might be a little disappointing if a person didn't have cancer and used them to add a few more sizes. perhaps they like to confound men as they don't seem to concentrate when 'headlights' are headed at them.
how did rimsky-korsakov get into all this? oh. underage drinking. mother's milk. i see. leucippus had some great points in his poem about not waiting for attention. i liked that poem very much. maybe i will frame it. it's kinda true for both. husbands are always waiting for the next *, and women are oblivious when tired. i think it takes staying somewhat healthy. you have to pay attention to yourselves, your diet - your exercise. it all adds up to being attractive, imo. if you feel good, you feel sexy. reading about '10 things men wished women knew about sex' from cosmo enlighted me somewhat - but i think in the back of my head i already knew it. when will they have a women's magazine that has the same article in reverse? actually, i think my husband is more 'experimentative' that me - but i think i shall (upon leucippus suggestion) think about surprising him in an untypical spot. we once tried the back seat of the car - but it didn't work out well for one of our legs. occasionally, when bicycling we notice beautiful hidden spots. wondering what park rangers do when they come upon mysterious patches of flat grass. probably attribute it to deer.
Topic: romantic confusion