You want advice, here it is (with a little bit of psychology mixed in! These are principles that can carry over into daily life.) Are you ready? Ok. You sound very, very frustrated with yourself. You're expecting to play it like you used to, and for pete's sake, that was 11 years ago and you haven't been serious about piano. You focused on raising your kids, and that is wonderful, because people come before "things".
Playing 3 against 4 is kind of an automatic thing--don't you think?--once you've learned it (like riding a bike as you said) you'll never forget it. It's the right hand by itself even, that's nasty, right? My advice? (This will be hard) DON'T TOUCH IT for at least(I mean that!) a month. Focus on re-developing your technique. Play scales, arpeggios, Hanon, etc. until you're blue in the face. You now have the maturity to discipline yourself in a different way than you could when you were younger. It might seem like you are taking a step or more BACKWARDS. And the fact is, you ARE. But it's necessary, and you're now an adult, and you can see that this idea "just might work". It won't hurt to try, will it? Well...
Go for it!!! And keep us posted!--Janice
