db05's thread, AKA If you are bored, come on in!

[ahinton]

I really do think it is not a good idea to love someone who is just a pixel on a computer screen.

How she was "breaking your heart", i have no idea.

I have to agree; it's rather difficult to love someone who you do not know and have never even seen in real life.

Thank you, incidentally, for your continuing - if still eminently bizarre - advertisement for the concert on 16 April.

Best,

Alistair

[iroveashe]

Good Lord, I thought it was only teenagers who made long discussions quoting and contradicting the previous user/s on the internet and going completely out of topic. Sadly I was very wrong.

[db05]

I really do think it is not a good idea to love someone who is just a pixel on a computer screen.

How she was "breaking your heart", i have no idea.

Do you bat for the other side perhaps??

Yes, I do appreciate your concern but I can hardly think of any of you as just pixels on a computer screen.

You don't need to know.

What do you mean?

I have to agree; it's rather difficult to love someone who you do not know and have never even seen in real life.

It is difficult, yes, but not impossible.

[ahinton]

It is difficult, yes, but not impossible.

For people such as you, perhaps...

Best,

Alistair

[m19834]

Thal, you are correct in your observation. I loved Karli. But she was (unwittingly) breaking my heart into pieces (again) so I lashed out earlier. Now I have calmed down a bit.

Db, I have no idea how I would be doing anything to your heart in any way.  Whatever I am or am not to you, obviously your expectations of me are not being fulfilled ... unless it is actually your desire to be at odds with me for no apparent reason to myself.  I will admit that from my perspective, this seems to be the case. 

[db05]

Db, I have no idea how I would be doing anything to your heart in any way.  Whatever I am or am not to you, obviously your expectations of me are not being fulfilled ... unless it is actually your desire to be at odds with me for no apparent reason to myself.  I will admit that from my perspective, this seems to be the case. 

At odds with you? Maybe... Although I like you a lot, I hate the distance you seem to take. But I guess it goes for everyone, and I'm the one at fault here.
Without saying too much, I guess I should move on...

[m19834]

At odds with you? Maybe... Although I like you a lot, I hate the distance you seem to take. But I guess it goes for everyone, and I'm the one at fault here.
Without saying too much, I guess I should move on...

Well, you act as though you have a lot to say about our interaction, and though you might feel that way, I don't feel the same.  The point for me is that whatever it is that you think is going on, whatever it is that I am doing or not doing, I simply have no idea what that is for you .  And, yes, this occurrance does not dimminish my general desire to just be going about my business.  If by the words "move on" you mean that you would like to just continue about your business, I would whole-heartedly support your decision !

[db05]

Well, you act as though you have a lot to say about our interaction, and though you might feel that way, I don't feel the same.  The point for me is that whatever is that you think is going on, whatever it is that I am doing or not doing, I simply have no idea what that is  .  And, yes, this occurrance does give me a desire to just go about my business.

It has just occurred to me that I might have been infatuated with m1469 from the Golden Age. Strangely enough, I had never talked to her, but in her I find a kindred spirit. I was hoping to find that m1469 in you, but I couldn't. I thought perhaps it had something to do with it being the Dark Ages now.

Anyhow, it doesn't matter now... I'm not going to bother you anymore, I think. I am getting tired of it myself.

[m19834]

It has just occurred to me that I might have been infatuated with M. from the Golden Age. Strangely enough, I had never talked to her, but in her I find a kindred spirit. I was hoping to find that M. in you, but I couldn't. I thought perhaps it had something to do with it being the Dark Ages now.

Anyhow, it doesn't matter now... I'm not going to bother you anymore, I think. I am getting tired of it myself.

Well, for you to decide who you think "M." is or who I am or am not, is really not going to be pleasing for you no matter what, since inevitably I am and have always just be plain old me  .  I have every right to grow and change, and the danger in general in my life is that I make a point of doing so.  Sometimes that is difficult for the people around me because I inevitably grow out of how they think of me, unless they themselves are willing to grow as well.  I happen to not feel as though we are in the "Dark Ages" here on the forum, and though it had its charm to be here when some members were more active, now is pretty great in some ways, too.  I don't wish for anybody in particular to stay away, but I certainly don't wish that now could be four years ago. 

[db05]

Well, for you to decide who you think "m1469" is or who I am or am not, is really not going to be pleasing for you no matter what, since inevitably I am and have always just be plain old me  .  I have every right to grow and change, and the danger in general in my life is that I make a point of doing so.  Sometimes that is difficult for the people around me because I inevitably grow out of how they think of me, unless they themselves are willing to grow as well.  I happen to not feel as though we are in the "Dark Ages" here on the forum, and though it had its charm to be here when some members were more active, now is pretty great in some ways, too.  I don't wish for anybody in particular to stay away, but I certainly don't wish that now could be four years ago. 

I chanced upon m1469 when I was still obsessed with the idea of being the best piano teacher, reading all the bernhard posts I can find. She always asked the right questions, and had quite a desire to learn. She had a sunny, enthusiastic attitude to piano and life. I remember she had What if?, Interesting Observations and Creative Writing threads. I don't remember if she started Dear Pianistimo or if there's a Dear m1469 in there... but she was quite a contributor nonetheless.

Believe it or not, I loved m1469, and I'm sure I'm not the only one. She was very endearing. Compared to m1469, K seems like a wannabe... Sorry... 

[go12_3]

It seems to me that db wants to be a  friend with Karli, and not "at odds" ,that's all; I can tell from the threads throughout this forum since I joined PS.   I know db well enough through chat room that she is sincere and honest about her feelings and through her posts she is only expressing herself openly.  Just give db a break and  and acknowledge what she feels and how  she feels today.

Some members here are not just some "user names" in the forum.  When we "see" and talk to one another in chat room, those of us that frequent there, we get to know each other as we express our thoughts and feelings.  It's a way we stay connected and we have our own real lives too.  But we have feelings. I think some members have a tendency to disregard the feelings of other members, even  it is the Internet. Plus, some members do disappear and never return.  But after awhile, the ones that frequent here, can tell who stays around the forum or not.

I don't mean to sound like this is a soap opera type of thing, but some members can chose not to get acquainted with other members but there are members that are worthwhile to get aquianted with and I have met several nice members already since I have joined.  Aren't  we all human beings afterall?  It just takes communication with one another to get acquainted, that's all.

best wishes,

go12_3

[m19834]

I chanced upon M. when I was still obsessed with the idea of being the best piano teacher, reading all the bernhard posts I can find. She always asked the right questions, and had quite a desire to learn. She had a sunny, enthusiastic attitude to piano and life. I remember she had What if?, Interesting Observations and Creative Writing threads. I don't remember if she started Dear Pianistimo or if there's a Dear M. in there... but she was quite a contributor nonetheless.

Believe it or not, I loved M., and I'm sure I'm not the only one. She was very endearing. Compared to M., K seems like a wannabe... Sorry... 

Well, I can now see your disappointment.  There's not much I can say or do regarding that !  I personally don't make a separation between "M." and "Karli" in terms of who I actually am, as I have said, I have always been myself.  However, I prefer to be called K and find it childish if people can't accept that.  If I were to try to change that simply because somebody who doesn't actually know me is disappointed as they are perhaps becoming disillusioned about me, then I would become a "wanna be."  And, in fact, I don't wanna be whatever it is that you think I should be  .  There are some individuals here who have known me throughout my entire time here, have "dealt" with me in "real time," and I figure my real friends will appreciate and accept me as the multi-faceted person that I am, not just these glimpses of who they may see and end up wanting me to be.

[db05]

It seems to me that db wants to be a  friend with Karli, and not "at odds" ,that's all; I can tell from the threads throughout this forum since I joined PS.   I know db well enough through chat room that she is sincere and honest about her feelings and through her posts she is only expressing herself openly.  Just give db a break and  and acknowledge what she feels and how  she feels today.

Never mind, go_mom... What's done is done. I realize I've been chasing the ghost of a good thing all along. 

[m19834]

Never mind, go_mom... What's done is done. I realize I've been chasing the ghost of a good thing all along. 

hee hee ... I know that is somehow supposed to jolt me.  But honestly, Db, if that is how you feel and that is how you see me, I more than welcome whatever disappointment you feel as it is a good sign that perhaps one day you will see a bigger view.

My best to you .

[db05]

hee hee ... I know that is somehow supposed to jolt me.

No. It is a quote from a song, and not intended to jolt anyone.

But honestly, Db, if that is how you feel and that is how you see me, I more than welcome whatever disappointment you feel as it is a good sign that perhaps one day you will see a bigger view.

My best to you .

  Thanks...

PS. Sorry for all the trouble.

[m19834]

PS. Sorry for all the trouble.

It is apparently much more trouble for you than it is for me, so maybe you are apologizing to yourself.  You are talking to somebody whom has probably *mostly* disappointed people in one way or another thoughout much of my life ... ha ha.  I guess you have just joined the tribe  .  Your decision.

[db05]

It is apparently much more trouble for you than it is for me, so maybe you are apologizing to yourself.  You are talking to somebody who has probably *mostly* disappointed people in one way or another ... ha ha.

You are talking to somebody who has suffered through several unrequited loves. I'm used to it. 

You are talking to somebody whom has probably *mostly* disappointed people in one way or another thoughout much of my life ... ha ha.  I guess you have just joined the tribe  .  Your decision.

Decision? I shall move on and be enthralled by someone else. Any volunteers?

[thalbergmad]

This is better than Coronation Street.

Thal

[db05]

This is better than Coronation Street.

Thal

Should I take this as an application?

[ahinton]

This is better than Coronation Street.

Isn't almost everything?

Best,

Alistair

[ahinton]

Should I take this as an application?

You can take it as a supplication if you so choose, but that's up to you alone...

Best,

Alistair

[db05]

You can take it as a supplication if you so choose, but that's up to you alone...

Best,

Alistair

  I'm not sure I know what you meant by that.

[thalbergmad]

Isn't almost everything?

Best,

Alistair

Yes, apart from the Schumann Concerto.

I think we better get out of this thread before "go" sees us. I am sure she is a headmistress.

Thal

[go12_3]

Yes, apart from the Schumann Concerto.

I think we better get out of this thread before "go" sees us. I am sure she is a headmistress.

Thal

Ah, dear Thal, 
How can I not miss this thread?       LOL, me a headmistress?   

best wishes,

go

[tds]

I shall move on and be enthralled by someone else. Any volunteers?

try nils, db

[db05]

try nils, db

I love you, Sir nils. 
(Can I have a gold account?)

[tds]

I love you, Sir nils. 
(Can I have a gold account?)

mmm...maybe bit more subtle?

[tds]

ever thought of the scandinavian way of hitting a person? (whatever that means muahahah )

[morningstar]

Do you bat for the other side perhaps??
Thal

I have started thinking that this is a possibility.

[db05]

I have started thinking that this is a possibility.

What do you guys mean??

[morningstar]

What do you guys mean??

You've never heard of the expression "batting for the other team"? :O

[db05]

You've never heard of the expression "batting for the other team"? :O

I thought that means betraying someone... Oh... 

[morningstar]

I thought that means betraying someone... Oh... 

Well now you know what we meant...

[ahinton]

Yes, apart from the Schumann Concerto.

I think we better get out of this thread before "go" sees us. I am sure she is a headmistress.

Thal

Now that "go" (why the "12_3", I wonder?) has cleared up the fact that she does not in fact belong to the profession that you seemed to think she does (although I can see no obvious reason why you made that assumption), I think that if there is a motive for us to get out of this thread it is rather more likely down to our shared negativity about Schumann's Piano Concerto...

On another topic more directly related to recent posts to this thread, one might say that, in the England of yesteryear, "batting for the other side" was simply not cricket...

Best,

Alistair

[m19834]

Decision? I shall move on and be enthralled by someone else.

Has it ever dawned on you that perhaps you can just be okay with not being enthralled in whomever you think that I am, and that, especially in the light of feeling as though I am NOT whatever you want for me to be, we can maybe finally just co-exist as mutually normal forum-goers without it needing to be love nor hate ?    That would be nice  .

[db05]

Has it ever dawned on you that perhaps you can just be okay with not being enthralled in whomever you think that I am, and that, especially in the light of feeling as though I am NOT whatever you want for me to be, we can maybe finally just co-exist as mutually normal forum-goers without it needing to be love nor hate ?    That would be nice  .

I have always needed to be enthralled by SOMEbody, otherwise I wouldn't be inspired to live.  Yes it would be nice not to need love, but honestly I can't do without it.

[m19834]

I have always needed to be enthralled by SOMEbody, otherwise I wouldn't be inspired to live.  Yes it would be nice not to need love, but honestly I can't do without it.

You must have a pretty lonely world  .

[db05]

You must have a pretty lonely world  .

Is it that hard to imagine? Took you so long to reach that conclusion.

[m19834]

Is it that hard to imagine? Took you so long to reach that conclusion.

Well, I guess the thing is, Db, maybe one day you will be okay without cutting remarks or kissy faces.  Afterall, it's not actually my fault that I have not somehow lived up to your own imagination.

[db05]

Well, I guess the thing is, Db, maybe one day you will be okay without cutting remarks or kissy faces.  Afterall, it's not actually my fault that I have not somehow lived up to your own imagination.

Maybe, but the lack of such things irl hadn't served me well either.
I'm very sorry.

[thalbergmad]

This reminds me of a scene from Prison Cell Block H.

Thal

[ahinton]

This reminds me of a scene from Prison Cell Block H.

Which you presumably regard as worse than Coronation Street. Difficult choice, but...

Best,

Alistair

[db05]

pianistimo is back! tanman is back!

but I still miss bernhard... 

[db05]

db05 's mood: depressed
reading: chat logs
listening to: Franck Prelude and Fugue
thinking of: I can barely think. What's the point?

[cai hong]

db, I am bored, so I came here *nods*

[concerto_love]

Li-chan's mood: jealous and depressed
reading: RP
listening to: none
thinking of: What will I do next... XP

[db05]

db05 's mood: a little bit hopeful... *unsheathes hope-killing sword*
reading: my own collection of quotes
listening to: Copeland - You are my Sunshine - Not Allowed
thinking of: deciding my future piano repertoire

today's quote:

My motto is to ignore the police because they control our freedom.
- Li Yang

Have a nice day, everyone. And some help with the repertoire would be appreciated. 

[go12_3]

I keep plugging away with my music, piano and violin.  Happy about my new
practice routine though. And the warmer weather, finally.
    Just quiet within and wanting something and yet nothing comes along though.
    Just going about my usual day today, hummmm....

[anne126]

Well I feel too tired to practice right now, and my friends are all gone.

Now I'm bored. :(

So here I am.

Also it's extremely hot here the AC is not wanting to work apparently and I daresay I shall be dead by the time anyone reads this.

[pianowolfi]

Well I feel too tired to practice right now, and my friends are all gone.

Now I'm bored.

So here I am.

Also it's extremely hot here the AC is not wanting to work apparently and I daresay I shall be dead by the time anyone reads this.

I have read this and apparently you are still alive