I really do think it is not a good idea to love someone who is just a pixel on a computer screen.How she was "breaking your heart", i have no idea.
I really do think it is not a good idea to love someone who is just a pixel on a computer screen.How she was "breaking your heart", i have no idea.Do you bat for the other side perhaps??
I have to agree; it's rather difficult to love someone who you do not know and have never even seen in real life.
It is difficult, yes, but not impossible.
Thal, you are correct in your observation. I loved Karli. But she was (unwittingly) breaking my heart into pieces (again) so I lashed out earlier. Now I have calmed down a bit.
Db, I have no idea how I would be doing anything to your heart in any way. Whatever I am or am not to you, obviously your expectations of me are not being fulfilled ... unless it is actually your desire to be at odds with me for no apparent reason to myself. I will admit that from my perspective, this seems to be the case.
At odds with you? Maybe... Although I like you a lot, I hate the distance you seem to take. But I guess it goes for everyone, and I'm the one at fault here. Without saying too much, I guess I should move on...
Well, you act as though you have a lot to say about our interaction, and though you might feel that way, I don't feel the same. The point for me is that whatever is that you think is going on, whatever it is that I am doing or not doing, I simply have no idea what that is . And, yes, this occurrance does give me a desire to just go about my business.
It has just occurred to me that I might have been infatuated with M. from the Golden Age. Strangely enough, I had never talked to her, but in her I find a kindred spirit. I was hoping to find that M. in you, but I couldn't. I thought perhaps it had something to do with it being the Dark Ages now.Anyhow, it doesn't matter now... I'm not going to bother you anymore, I think. I am getting tired of it myself.
Well, for you to decide who you think "m1469" is or who I am or am not, is really not going to be pleasing for you no matter what, since inevitably I am and have always just be plain old me . I have every right to grow and change, and the danger in general in my life is that I make a point of doing so. Sometimes that is difficult for the people around me because I inevitably grow out of how they think of me, unless they themselves are willing to grow as well. I happen to not feel as though we are in the "Dark Ages" here on the forum, and though it had its charm to be here when some members were more active, now is pretty great in some ways, too. I don't wish for anybody in particular to stay away, but I certainly don't wish that now could be four years ago.
I chanced upon M. when I was still obsessed with the idea of being the best piano teacher, reading all the bernhard posts I can find. She always asked the right questions, and had quite a desire to learn. She had a sunny, enthusiastic attitude to piano and life. I remember she had What if?, Interesting Observations and Creative Writing threads. I don't remember if she started Dear Pianistimo or if there's a Dear M. in there... but she was quite a contributor nonetheless.Believe it or not, I loved M., and I'm sure I'm not the only one. She was very endearing. Compared to M., K seems like a wannabe... Sorry...
It seems to me that db wants to be a friend with Karli, and not "at odds" ,that's all; I can tell from the threads throughout this forum since I joined PS. I know db well enough through chat room that she is sincere and honest about her feelings and through her posts she is only expressing herself openly. Just give db a break and and acknowledge what she feels and how she feels today.
Never mind, go_mom... What's done is done. I realize I've been chasing the ghost of a good thing all along.
hee hee ... I know that is somehow supposed to jolt me.
But honestly, Db, if that is how you feel and that is how you see me, I more than welcome whatever disappointment you feel as it is a good sign that perhaps one day you will see a bigger view.My best to you .
PS. Sorry for all the trouble.
It is apparently much more trouble for you than it is for me, so maybe you are apologizing to yourself. You are talking to somebody who has probably *mostly* disappointed people in one way or another ... ha ha.
You are talking to somebody whom has probably *mostly* disappointed people in one way or another thoughout much of my life ... ha ha. I guess you have just joined the tribe . Your decision.
This is better than Coronation Street.Thal
This is better than Coronation Street.
Should I take this as an application?
You can take it as a supplication if you so choose, but that's up to you alone...Best,Alistair
Isn't almost everything?Best,Alistair
Yes, apart from the Schumann Concerto.I think we better get out of this thread before "go" sees us. I am sure she is a headmistress.Thal
I shall move on and be enthralled by someone else. Any volunteers?
try nils, db
I love you, Sir nils. (Can I have a gold account?)
Do you bat for the other side perhaps??Thal
I have started thinking that this is a possibility.
What do you guys mean??
You've never heard of the expression "batting for the other team"? :O
I thought that means betraying someone... Oh...
Decision? I shall move on and be enthralled by someone else.
Has it ever dawned on you that perhaps you can just be okay with not being enthralled in whomever you think that I am, and that, especially in the light of feeling as though I am NOT whatever you want for me to be, we can maybe finally just co-exist as mutually normal forum-goers without it needing to be love nor hate ? That would be nice .
I have always needed to be enthralled by SOMEbody, otherwise I wouldn't be inspired to live. Yes it would be nice not to need love, but honestly I can't do without it.
You must have a pretty lonely world .
Is it that hard to imagine? Took you so long to reach that conclusion.
Well, I guess the thing is, Db, maybe one day you will be okay without cutting remarks or kissy faces. Afterall, it's not actually my fault that I have not somehow lived up to your own imagination.
This reminds me of a scene from Prison Cell Block H.
Well I feel too tired to practice right now, and my friends are all gone.Now I'm bored. So here I am. Also it's extremely hot here the AC is not wanting to work apparently and I daresay I shall be dead by the time anyone reads this.
Topic: db05's thread, AKA If you are bored, come on in! 