my gibberish that may not be of value...haha

my feeling after concert:
ok, here we go. i've never given a concert that i am entirely satisfied with. in fact, most of the time, i thought they were somehow below acceptable standard. but funny thing is that there are my point of view of my performance, and there are opinions from critics, friends, family and audience. do i find discrepancies between these views? quite often! - sometimes slight, sometimes big. sometimes quite similar to how i feel, but occasionally, they differ so much that they can be confusing-as if we were discussing about two completely different matters.
practicing:
when practicing i try to focus and work as methodically as i can. this is not a "fun" nor exciting stage. i work seriously with a lot of sweats and occasional headaches. here i am at my "most analytical" mode. i try to understand as much as possible, drill as effectively as i can, apply as many methods as i can think of. slavery!
during performance:
i set myself on "pure enjoyment of music"/"fun"/"sharing beauty" mode. of course concentration and awareness of what has been learnt and practiced are there, but of less intense at this stage ( unless i perform a new, difficult piece that requires massive concentration!! )
preconcert moments:
moment before walking to the stage, i pray to God: "God you have your plan in me. what do i know?!!" and then its time to think about sharing music, having fun, loving ur audience, enjoying urself on the stage.
preparations:
I eat enough healthy foods before concert till 3 hours before the H hour. i dont eat anything unusual coz i do wanna get sick. i used to not eat at all, but this has proven to be bad for my stamina and concentration. i sleep enough several days before concert. i exercise regularly. if i give concerts in other countries where there is a big time difference, i try to arrive several days beforehand to get used to jet lag
another preparation thingy:
avoid ps.com and/or other internet forums/chats as much as u can. even tho u miss lucylucy

