I don't know...

[kelly_kelly]

All my life I've basically assumed that my focus will be academics (math/physics). I like it, and I'm fairly good at it (not spectacular). But this year especially, I've noticed that I'm happiest when I'm playing/listening to music, and I rarely get the same joy out of doing physics. I procrastinate by listening to or researching music, and half the time I'm depressed that I can't put more time into it. My parents have noticed this (that I'm much more passionate about music than academics) and they have told me repeatedly not to delude myself, that if my heart is in music I won't be successful anywhere else. But... I don't know. I'm nowhere near the level I would need to be in order to pursue a music major. And maybe if music was required I would stop enjoying it? Though I really do enjoy long practice sessions... So I'm confused. I guess ideally I would want to double major (in physics and music), so I could figure out which I really want. But that wouldn't work because I'm just not good enough... so I suppose I don't really have a choice?

I think I'll stop rambling now. Thanks for reading my confused babbling.

[go12_3]

Yes, you do have a choice,  decide what YOU really want to DO with your life.
Set your goals and work towards them , a step at a time.  Don't let up on yourself.
When I attended the University as a piano performance major , I worked hard each
day and I was driven to be good and I was, but I wasn't GOOD enough though because of
my nerves and so I quit and still worked on my music and teach piano.  It's up to you
what you can do,take some music classes and some physics.  Just don't over load
yourself so that you can't focus upon what you want to learn and accomplish.  There
is much you can do and only you can decide that for yourself.  Good luck! 

best wishes,

go12_3

[richard black]

I was good at sciences and at music when I was a teenager. I went to university to study physics and spent lots of time practising the piano. I got a physics degree, not a very good one but good enough to get me a decent job which I did for 8 years. With the money I earned I bought a flat (on a mortgage, of course) which I still have. I now spend most of my time working as a pianist, which I hadn't remotely expected when I was 20. You never know where life will take you, really. But there's more than one way to live a life. I tend to take whatever fate throws at me and just go with it. I know some people would regard that as totally rubbish, but hey, I'm happy enough.