Lol. I think that voice in your head is too hard on you. You're not bad at all. And being CREATIVE counts for a lot. Don't forget that. Simply being technically proficient is akin to a shiny coat of armor with no one in it: it's polished, it's impressive, and it just sits there and does nothing. Creativity is the life force that animates what would otherwise just be empty notes.
I understand and appreciate your compliments.
God understands too and made me sprain my right wrist while rollerblading last night.
THANK YOU GOD FOR MAKING ME MORE HUMBLE!
I AM NOT WORTHY OF MY SUPERTALENT!
I WILL EMEDIATLY SACRIFICE TEN THOUSANT BEARMANPIGS IN YOUR HONOUR!
(as soon as my wrist gets better and i can kill again)