You're story and subsequent musical execution are very creative!
Lol. I think that voice in your head is too hard on you. You're not bad at all. And being CREATIVE counts for a lot. Don't forget that. Simply being technically proficient is akin to a shiny coat of armor with no one in it: it's polished, it's impressive, and it just sits there and does nothing. Creativity is the life force that animates what would otherwise just be empty notes.
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I'm sure God appreciates your earnestness.