It was really interesting to read what you wrote. I think you've right, because I love what I do. I love to play piano and I really love music, and it's a very important thing in my life. So maybe that's why my leg "lives it's own live" sometimes.
But I didn't really understand everything that you wrote (sorry, I'm from Sweden). How did you stop your leg from trembling, and do you think it's good to do it, or does it take the energy away?
Well, I don't think it works to try to stop it, exactly, I mean, you can't suppress it I don't think. If it's really just "extra" then it needs to go somewhere or it's going to cause a problem. Somehow you have to saddle it

. It's not actually coming from your leg or wherever else it shows up, it's coming from the experience and while there's a definite element of the music being in charge, somehow we have to be capable of riding that, no matter how big it is (like a wave in the ocean). Meh. Finally in my life I can actually somewhat understand and explain certain experiences I've had, but to write it all out ... meh.
Anyway, for me it reaches some kind of "critical" point where I have to make a big decision and either everything stops or I cross over into another realm. Sometimes there's a bit of time though of inbetween-ness, like purgatory or so

. I figure I'm not making much sense right now. I have no recipe at all, but there's something like a bigger embrace of the situation where everything relaxes and you can ride even a huge wave. There's just some kind of letting go or getting bigger ... or something. I don't know how to explain it. I've also kind of smacked on my face though, too. meh. (ouchy ... ouchy ... ouchy ...

).
Strangely, a singer is not "supposed" to listen to oneself in the same way a pianist is hounded to do. A singer is supposed to feel with their body how everything is going, and that's what the singer is supposed to "get" to experience, while the audience gets the sound. In piano playing, sometimes it seems that when I listen better, harder, deeper ... or something, the body just kind of complies. And, generally, yes, I think it can definitely disperse the energy away from the sound and take away from it, but I'm certainly not ready to live by a hard and fast rule (there has to be some elasticity!).
Bye bye for now

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