The discouraging part we have all been there. Its not fun, its frustrating, annoying, bothersome, upsetting, and just a royal pain. But keep pushing and trying. There are gems of pure bliss waiting for you amidst all that hard work.
As far as being embarrassed, well just remember your not just sitting on your backside, your trying to accomplish something and that you should never be embarrassed about.
Keep at it , and remember anyone who adds music to his old world of ours makes it a better place.