"Monsty"

[m1469]

Well, this is me striving to break through the wall.  I'm just striving to follow what I feel I need to follow, without judgement.  I guess you could say it's a little like a child's explorations, which is what it actually feels like a bit.  But, I let myself explore, I guess!  

[edit]I have also attached in this post a second form of "Monsty", which I had attached in reply #3 after the initial one[edit]

[pianowolfi]

There is an astonishing change in this, I don't know how to describe it with words but I guess it's not really necessary. So the first part is like the "crachon" Monsty, but the second half is like the inner self of that monsty, so it's not really a monsty. Well it is really, but it's a sort of heartbreaking monsty in the second half...hmm

[m1469]

Yes, well, I believe that every Monsty in the world has layers, and that it's only a certain layer who is the Monsty.

Thanks for listening .

[m1469]

Well, this shouldn't need its own thread.  I'm just aiming at digging deeper, which I guess these/this reflects.  There are a couple of things that matter most to me about what I am doing in improvisation right now, and I feel I am achieving those enough to want to post this (as, for me, that is part of the process, as well).  I'm trying to practically literally grasp something that is beyond this stuff, but this stuff comes first, I guess.  This is perhaps an audio file of a growing process.

[edit] sorry, first time I attached, I guess I cut off the very last notes -- this one has them   [edit]

[Derek]

Hi mayla, I'm listening now to the first recording in this thread you posted and enjoying it. I thought it was interesting when the music got melodic and mildly contrapuntal in one part, and then suddenly the MONSTY popped up again for a couple of seconds. Was that the monsty's last gasp of breath as he died?  Ah, I like the last couple of minutes as well. Very cool.

I think you underestimate your own power judging by some comments you've left in others' improv threads. You posses a powerful creative force.

[m1469]

Hi Derek,

Firstly, thanks for listening!  Actually, what you say regarding Monsty's last breath is something that I kind of thought, too (when I listened back), however, I'm pretty certain we haven't heard the last of Monsty.  So, no matter what, Monsty's not actually dead.  I guess I shouldn't have written about being a little snake's eyeball compared to others, sometimes that's how I feel but, judging by all factors that would lead me to think like that, I can see how maybe I am not grasping a fuller picture.

It's a little strange-feeling to be going ahead and just listening with/to my inner ear without immediately turning things down, just if they are not what it seems they should be.  Ultimately, I believe it will lead me to some place I've been for a long time wanting to go.  

Thanks for listening and for your thoughts .

[chopinatic]

Wow, thats some exploring! very powerful and creating, sounds like you had lots of fun with these! great job, thanks for posting

[m1469]

Hi Chopinatic, thanks for listening!  Yes, I actually did have quite a bit of fun with these .

[furtwaengler]

There is something in this which hits the very essence of what is music to me, something that I do not particularly long to put into words. There is a resignation which could indeed be the very opposite of resignation...the moment when the tragic weight of a situation bears down the blow that knocks you into the escape realm where everyone disappears, and everything becomes a magnified unreality. There is a passage I think of in the 2nd movement of Mahler's 5th Symphony, which I can only describe as "stepping out of the room."

It is all very meaningful to me.

[m1469]

Hi Dave,

Thank you very much for your comments here, and they are comments which do indeed speak to me as though they come from your heart, and that is very wonderful of you to be willing to do that for me.  I don't know for certain that I understand what you are saying, but I think I do, and if I do, then I know what you are describing ... haha ... if that makes an *ounce* of sense.  I think that's a very perceptive observation from you and probably quite helpful for me, actually.