Well, of course I'm not super experienced with competitions. I've recently just had my first adult one ever. I had thought I at least had a fighting chance and that perhaps if I sung my best, I could win (but I certainly wasn't counting that I would as fact). In fact, I did sing the best I have ever sung and I believe that although I will continue to grow, develop and improve, and there are things I can adjust in order to better refine what I did, I gave a professional and inspired performance at a time that it really mattered.
I've had mixed feelings about all of it. Yes, I would like to have won for various reasons and not doing so has given rise to some deep questions (which, is not what you might think!), but at the same time there are numbers of things that I can grasp about the position the judges were in, too. Even if I did happen to give the best performance, which I'm not saying I did because I don't know but, let's just say that was possible. Even if I did, the judges were local and I was up against people who would have (and probably very much did) given very solid, professional, beautiful performances, as well, but who also have outstanding singing/operatic resumes and who, on paper, would win in that way over me in a heartbeat. So, even aside from other matters (which I won't mention), how would that look if
I won? Some local chick (a pianist ... whaaa??) who they can hardly advertise, having beat out 50-something other, experienced, professional contestants from around the Country? That's tricky.
I kind of think though that they didn't expect for me to sing like I did and were like "oh poopy, let's just pretend
that didn't happen!" (yet, it did :-) and promptly swept it under the rug

. I'm just not sure if I completely don't stand a chance anywhere, when the people who know me and (supposedly) believe in me *could* give me something to put on my resume that would speak to others but don't, and if the people who don't know me won't give me a chance because I never get a second glance past my resume!
Anyhoo, I guess it's tricky business!

Maybe I'm just going to end up a shaggy bag lady

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