Memorization vs. Dynamics

[flyinfingers]

I was reading some of the posts on memorization.  I am struggling with memorization, to say the least.  Never thought this would be a major problem when I took up piano again.  I'm not sure I want to spend practice time memorizing when I'm finding myself not being focused on it (because there's so many other things to worry about)!   I'm sure if someone said, If you don't memorize, you will be homeless; then it's a different story!

But I think the best thing about having the music on hand is that you know how to express the dynamics of the music.  I can't remember all the accents and dynamics and whatnots.  I would much rather move on to another piece since there's no one to play for anyway!   I have been playing a piece for four months (four pages and like a level 4  ) and I still don't know it by heart, probably because I was solely focused on the notes and everything else, which has been a herculean event!  
Taking up piano again has been a humbling experience for me.   I think I should just keep running....literally!

[iansinclair]

Whatever works...

As I said (or implied) in that other lovely thread on memorization, there is no law that says you have to, and there is a whole class of keyboard folks -- organists -- who almost never do.

I do memorize some of what I learn (I was an organist until I retired) for two reasons: first, it's kind of neat to be able to go to my daughter-in-law's house and wow the troops with what an old f__t can do without having the music even, but more because I find that some of the stuff I enjoy playing I need to look at my hands to make sure I don't lose my keyboard position.

But -- If you are happy with what you are doing, and getting the results which you want for yourself, isn't that what it's all about anyway?  Keep on flying!

[keyboardclass]

Sit down with the score and listen to any pianist you like - very often you'll find they've left out the finer dynamic detail (Gieseking probably excepted).