Do you ever get torn apart between renditions?

[rachmaninoff_forever]

Kinda like, you like how this guy plays a piece, but then you hear another guy play the same piece but plays a certain passage better.  But then you hear another guy who butchers the piece, but plays a different passage better than everyone else, and you don't know which one to listen to!  So ANYWAYS, really starting to get out of hand now.  There are soooooooooooooo many good recordings of the Rach 3, but everyone plays certain passages or movements better than others!  What the heck?!
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I like Horowitz rendition, but it's too sloppy and misses a lot of notes.  But then he plays another one with Mehta.  The quality is okay, but he plays the tocatta cadenza.  And you have to wait a whole minute and a half before the concerto actually starts!  So that's really a bother...

And then there's Kissin!  He does a pretty good Cadenza, but I think overall it's pretty boring.

Lazar Berman plays some parts of the Cadenza better than Kissin, but the little tocatta Piu mosso is kinda week, and I don't like how he plays parts of the third movement.

Lugansky does a good job too!  Except he plays the tocatta cadneza...

Yuja Wang copies Horowitz, but it doesn't exactly sound like Horowitz.  That's the problem.

Rachmaninoff plays some passages pretty well himself!  But the quality sucks, and he cuts some parts out of the concerto.

Volodos does a good cadenza, and one thing I absolutely love how he brings out the hidden melodies!  Except, there are some parts I don't like about it...

I thought that Valentina Lisitsa would do a good job, but I don't really think she did.  She must have had a bad day!  I can't wait for her CD to come out!
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And lets not forget about Olga Kern, Lang Lang, Martha Argerich, Van Cliburn, and Weissenberg!  They're all good, but there's little quirks that I don't like about them.  And then there's quirks that I don't like about the orchestra and the conductor!  I listed out all of the quirks, that I don't like about each performer, the list would be FAAAAR too long to type out.  So often times I find myself listening to small portions of the concerto, then listen to someone else play a different passage.  This has turned into an obsession.  So I try to refrain from listening to the Rach 3 as much as possible.  But I can't go long without listening my favorite concerto, so I find myself doing the same thing, and it's really unsettling.  So a lot of times, I'm staying till like two in the morning listening to different recordings, or searching for one that beats them all. 

Of course everything I said about these recordings are in my opinion, but do you ever get torn apart like this?  Do you ever hate listening to music, because you love them so much?

[j_menz]

I even get torn between my own renditions.

[invictious]

I even get torn between my own renditions.

I always get torn between my own renditions as to which is less abysmal