Thanks m1469, I don't mind tardiness if I know I get to hear your music! I must confess I've not been on pianostreet in sometime...less and less...and have missed quite a lot, though I have seen you in Vienna from a distance. Africa was kind of like my Vienna. Except, I wondered while staying in Bo, Sierra Leone if I could never touch a piano again...what would happen? How much would I think (dream) about it? It was the oddest feeling knowing how much music I've put inside me through the years. Questions like, if I was here in 20 years without touching a piano, hearing a recording, writing a piece (now that's been about 7 years anyway) etc, what would still be stuck in my head? Bruckner? Mahler? Would I be able to mentally get through the first movement of the 9th Symphony? Would it matter? I don't know if anybody else here has experienced such thoughts. In someways it may be healthy for anyone, discovering music is not the "choose bit." In this way I feel like I am free to explore and enjoy music!
Wolfi, thanks for the wishes. Sorry to hear about the slump. I know they come and go, but I admire your discipline in the matter. Which Rachmaninoff are practicing? op. 28? I have taken a bit of a tumble myself recently, hardly touch a piano this summer, and even now practicing only about 2 days a week. This should pick up soon, however.
That would be neat to hear, and neat to explore, but in some ways it must come out in much that you do today, although a tree does not look like a seed. I have practically no childhood memories, even as I do know I was once a child. I didn't know anything back then, either. I started playing at 11 out of my own exploration and nobody's prodding. There is still this sense, though that I've always been a symphony and had a symphony, and it only started to manifest itself at 11. As for you here, I feel the child's wonder has always been apparent.
I will not push you! Would it be a tragedy if one of the world's most meaningful voices stopped speaking except in other peoples languages? I don't know. Part of this is that I have felt less and less ABLE to really improvise meaningfully. Maybe recordings are to blame? I just don't know. But I should push myself now.
I wouldn't worry too much m1469. It is probably only a matter of time before you need to express something which does not exist in other people's works. But if not, then that's all right. Only a very small minority of musicians improvise as an end in itself at the best of times anyway, and only a handful are loonies about it like me. You are a bit different as far as trained musicians go though, so my bet is that it will return sooner or later. "Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law"
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Happy birthday!
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