Your signature just got even worse. You shouldn't need alcohol to enjoy either activity.
If that really is the case, then you're enjoying the alcohol, rather than the activities.
You sound like a person who feels down all of the time. I want to help you feel better about music.
If you can feel better about music, you will feel better about everything.
Oh, I feel fantastic about music. If I didn't feel fantastic about music, I wouldn't keep composing, especially considering that I go out of my to make sure I won't get money for it.
I like music a lot. Just not piano in particular. I personally feel its an exceptionally overused instrument, the crutch instrument of many composers. It's familiar and relatable. Since its conception, it has been this way. I've heard enough of it for ten lifetimes. I can't recall making anything I consider lighthearted or joyful on piano, but such is fairly simple with other instruments for me.
And the point of my signature is that both activities are of such an incredibly dull, bland, and unenjoyable nature that I would have to impair myself through some means to consider them enjoyable.