Music must come from the heart, not from a total sense of accomplishment or showmanship. Play your music from within !I hope you come to feel better !!
I have been fearing for some time that I am emotionally stunted as well...
Hmm, not sure how you mean that ? But if you feel that way, then it is something you can work on.
Whoa, calm down. Besides, with pieces that are longer...you cannot expect to play a great deal after having that piece under your belt for just...what, a few months? So, there.
I failed my teacher, my family my honor and myself. When I got home and I looked at my piano I felt bone deep despair... Tomorrow I have classes and I don't know if I can face my professorhe was going to tell me something at the end when we were all leaving but I ran away like a B.
He was probably going to tell you that everyone has off days and that you're more worried about it than anyone else is, and you shouldn't let one recital out of a lifetime of performances get you down.
Just came back from classes which I dreaded to go today and this sum it up pretty well. honestly I thought he would tell me to go away and never come back again.
You have said you have had practiced 7 times upstairs before performing...
The rule I was given regarding preparation for concert performance is that for every couple of times you PLAY FOR PLEASURE (letting go), it is good to "clean" the piece slowly with a purely technical approach (taking back control), because by merely playing (=enjoying) a piece, the image of required movements in the brain for that piece becomes blurred.
If you can do it in practice, you just need to get over the nerves.You need to find a gig where you can play in public where the audience is not judging you. Try a nursing home, one that has a piano. Or a bar that has open mike on Tuesday night when nobody shows up. A church that needs a pianist for Sunday School assembly (not the main auditorium).
My teacher told me he insist I do the following:1.Play right hand naming the notes2.Play left hand naming the notes.3.Play right hand naming left notes4.Play left hand naming right notes.5. Even while performing count aloud, in my case un y dos y tres y cuatro for 4/4Also I decided that you guys are right and that for my next recital I will play the Polonaise again plus another piece, perhaps some Bach.That said I don't really trust myself and my confidence is my growing skills wavered greatly but I guess that I will have to man the hell up =pA problem is that I know I can do better because I have but a failure like this brings into light a looot of doubts and fears I didn't even knew existed. As for the "energy"while playing I will have to look for a solution quickly, lately my life feels like a rocky road filled with potholes of despair and long stretches of loneliness. Nevertheless no one will said that I didn't try so from this day onward I wil double, nay triple my efforts.
Here is a device I found at the music store. It is a display of GH action for yamaha clavinova. Has only 6 keys. I take it with me on trips and such. good for when watching tv, reading, etc. Fun to keep under your fingers when reading a score.
Idk, I saw this as a display for the keyboards in the music store that sells pianos. To get this, my dealer had to call yamaha for a price. The dealer orders these as as a vendor for yamaha/ not for sale. You could try to call yamaha or a keyboard dealer! Otherwise, I am fixing to ask my wonderful dealer on how to order these, so my friends could get one! Would you like me to let you know? I am going to write him, right now. (Supposedly, they are 40 dollars. Before I called and asked to buy the display, I could not find any online.) Thanks for checking it out!
I want one...and OMG Chopin don't look at me D;
So today I had a recital, I was going to present Chopin's Polonaise in G min (Posthumous). And I say was because...well let me tell you.I arrived early today, first on the scene so I went to warm and practice on a piano upstairs (the recital was down) I played the piece 7 times on a row with if I may say so myself very pleasant results, but as time approached for my turn my hands grew cold and stiff... when I was called I was a nervous wreck, I tried to play and I succeed for the first 15 seconds....That is where disaster struck one error become two and then four, I carried on the only thing I can salvage from the experience is that I didn't stop once I just pushed my away clumsily like if it was nothing, but inside I feel dead.I failed my teacher, my family my honor and myself. When I got home and I looked at my piano I felt bone deep despair... Tomorrow I have classes and I don't know if I can face my professorhe was going to tell me something at the end when we were all leaving but I ran away like a B.I guess my question is this:I humiliated myself, I made a fool out of myself, I may have been the worst performance today...If I keep showing up will the stage fright go away? Kinda like getting used to it, one of my classmates has been playing for 7 years and he was just on another level, confident and cool, I wish that I could.Thanks for reading.
Wow, can you buy those? Great idea.
I get a kick out of this because most folks around here dislike digital pianos, tell everyone to buy acoustic pianos but yet want this piece of a digital piano for practice. Funny how the piece of keyboard is fantastic suddenly ! Incidentally, at their website Kawai shows sections like these as well. I doubt they are for sale though.
I shall post pictures of this device. We should make this a project! I would like one with a little more than a octave, that would be groovy.
Care to explain your sig? My teacher found it hilarious even in our language and I don't even know...
I think he's quoting Victor Borge, one of my favorites.A "flat" is the same as an apartment.
Oooooooh....damn I'm dense, I will punish myself accordingly later.
So today I had a recital, I was going to present Chopin's Polonaise in G min (Posthumous). And I say was because...well let me tell you[...]
Why on earth would my teacher let me learn the piece in the first place? Sure, I may have a slightly faster learning ability than some, but my ambitions tend to be pianistically suicidal.
Yep, today I disgraced Chopin, my teacher, and myself. And it's not even the bad performance itself that disappoints me. It's that even with several months of hard work, I still wasn't able to ever play this piece 'correctly'. Why on earth would my teacher let me learn the piece in the first place? Sure, I may have a slightly faster learning ability than some, but my ambitions tend to be pianistically suicidal.
I had a complete train wreck last week. Felt utterly ashamed. I pretended that I wasn't broken on the inside and cracked a joke to make everyone laugh, I just about got away with it. I managed to slope out of the building largely unnoticed but now I can't even think about the pieces I tried to play. I was devastated but it's given me the motivation to not feel like that again. Practice, focus on a goal, seize control and come up with a plan. I know where I want to be by next Christmas and whether he likes it or not, my teacher is gonna show me the way.Death...or glory.
These last few comments remind me of a speech class I had taken. A fellow classmate had a fear of public speaking, sort of. He actually had no problem at all with sitting in his seat and telling the whole class about the police car that started chasing him because of some goof he had made, and then lost him. He was a friendly and chatty guy. But when he had to get out of his seat and go to the front of the class to give a prepared speech, he would almost choke.Ever since, I've wondered how he could be so easy and casual about the one, but mortified of the other. I think it must be a sense of performing and being judged. I've wondered if the mind-set could be retrained, because his fear obviously wasn't just of a group of people listening to what he had to say.