A very nice set, and I don't find the playing atrocious. The mistakes such as there are, are in style, as one can expect from a composer playing their own work. I like your harmonic language, but if I may offer a little criticism it's that you seem to over-use your material. Persoannly I would welcome a bit more contrast and variety.
Hi ,Being a "layman & non-pianist" I am unshackled by the "rules" that many musicians are bound to and just listen and allow music to "flow through me". The first part hit me with sadness, sorrow, some gloom and despair. The contrast to the beginning of the 2nd part was quite effective ... it offered a glimmer of hope, of much less sadness and perhaps eventual joy and happiness. Frankly I got lost in the 3rd part .... but along the way some degree of clarity began to develope and ended up with a clear resolution beginning 18:04. THANKS for posting. Now, to read your description.