I didn't feel satisfied with my performance

[faa2010]

Yesterday, I was in a recital with other fellas of the same private school. Some play violin, bass, cello and some sang.

I was hoping to play part of Mozart sonata g major k 283, the first part of both the Allegro and Andante, and Bach's Invention 13.

Unfortunately, my teacher, even though she told me that I could decided either playing it or not, she  didn't allow me to play it at the last minute, even if she let other of her students to play an Invention even though he made a lot of mistakes, even he had to play it over.

I played it after while everyone was eating and/or leaving, and I told that with that I had enough. Now I realized that I only lied to myself. I really want to play it, and now I don't feel satisfied because I didn't display my potential even if I had committed similar mistakes as my peer.

Is it ok to feel bad?, can I express my teacher my discomfort about it?, even I recorded it and send it to her, and I want to send it to a friend who went to the recital, but I can't take away that discomfort.

How can I feel better?

[deadlyhippo4]

You should probably talk to her. But try not to judge her decisions too harshly before listening to the other side of the story. Oftentimes there is another reason besides your playing which may have caused her to cancel your performance.

[faa2010]

You should probably talk to her. But try not to judge her decisions too harshly before listening to the other side of the story. Oftentimes there is another reason besides your playing which may have caused her to cancel your performance.

You are right, in fact, before I had the chance to speak with her, she sent a general message to all the students, where she pointed out the good and bad points of the recital. She pointed the lack of study, that we apologized and tried to explain to the audience due to our lack of preparation (even though she told me not to play the complete movements 1 and 2 of Mozart's Sonata). However, I felt some kind of relieve just because I didn't rebel against her by playing the Invention, because she would have appointed it even though she didn't say my name.

I will tell her the next time I see her if she appoints that I didn't play the Sonata complete.